#gopuckurself

love is wanting you to be there, a dtcfdp web weaving for @saintmouthed

july 22nd 2022

hello friends. welcome back to chaos.

cw: medical issues (brain-related injury and long covid)

let’s start with 2020. everyone was burnt out by the end of 2020, but considering the amount of fic i wrote as well as the fact that I created an entire creative writing portfolio from scratch that year, i sorta crashed twice as hard as was necessary.

2021 was consumed with my first year of my masters program. i got a job! i had to quit that job because school was more important to me and i was falling behind. i started a lot of projects that i wasn’t able to keep up with. it got to the point where i couldn’t even find time to write for school assignments, let alone for fun, let alone for fanfiction.

so that brings us to 2022 (hell year: this time it’s personal). i got covid. i threw out my thesis that i’d been working on for a year the same week. a few weeks later, i passed out and hit my head

two weeks later i fell and hit my head a second time. i spent the night in the hospital. i’ve got long covid, they think that’s what’s making me pass out. i’m still trying to figure out what’s going on with the whole passing-out-thing but i’m doing better. (mostly)

i still can’t read or write the same way i could before i fell. it’s slower going. I type and say the wrong words sometimes. most of my writing is done with dictation and considering the content of my fanfic...yeah, dictating that’s a little weird lmao, especially with thin walls and roommates. 

so that brings me to dtcfdp: most of it was written in 2020. i’ve been adding bits and pieces here and there for the past two years, but honestly, most of it’s done. i want to get it out there—there are two chapters left, and then an epilogue. the epilogue is the only thing that remains completely unwritten. chapter 8′s done, in fact, but it ends on such a painful cliffhanger (worse than chapter 7′s cliffhanger, trust me) that i don’t want to post chapter 8 without chapter 9. (because I know how frustrating it is to wait...and y’all have been waiting so long.)

the story will be complete enough once I finish chapter 9. the epilogue’s just fun stuff. i’m hoping you’ll see it soon, but like i said, it’s slower going than before i fell and i’m running out of summer break. 

thanks for listening to this ramble. thanks for reaching out to me over the past few years, even when i wasn’t answering. it’s been a rough time.

but here’s to (pretty girls who went to our heads) better days ahead. here’s to making it through these years. here’s to more chaos.