#goodjoobjonghyun

SO SAD.

December 17th 2017 was just such a cool day. I saw ONE OK ROCK live in Vienna, the gig was amazing! And we were so close to the stage!

Life is truly strange. Because of December, 18th 2017. Just another day, but completely different. It’s been a while since a loss hit me that hard, actually it never did before, not this hard. Never gonna forget this date.

I know how people feel about long posts that are not relevant to the topic that people liked my page for. I just feel like our modern, digital, short-living world that cares so little has become so cruel, to the point of being unbearable for some of us - including one of my favourite singers, an innocent soul who just commited suicide. The tragic news of his death truly hit me by surprise and left me devastated. I’m still in a state of shock. I’m a big fan of SHINEE since over 7 years. I truly loved them. They helped me through hard times. I especially adored Jonghyun sooo much. Never in my wildest dreams did the thought ever occurred to me that one day (and it was so soon too!), I’d wake up to the shocking news of Jonghyun commiting SUICIDE? Why? He was successful in many ways, beloved, talented, good-looking - a ‘perfect’ person. But that seemed to just be his superficial outside self. I just… love life so much and I can’t imagine how hard… unbearable… lonely… dark it must have been in his soul… that led him into taking his own life. Why didn’t he tell anyone? Suicide is really no solution to anything because the end awaits us anyways, so why not trying anything else before that? Why giving up… Life is so much more than the things that you see or feel right now. And I know it’s selfish but it hurts so much to lose someone that you like! Please someone tell me that this is a bad dream. It would be the best Christmas present ever! I feel sooo sorry for this poor soul. I have so much more to say but I keep forgetting it. It’s hard to keep living a normal live and pretend like nothing happened because it’s just “another loss” in this cruel world. I’ll always remember. May he rest in peace, poor poor Jonghyun. He was 27.