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This was the chant at practice this evening ^^^

If there could be a theme to my life it is constant frustration over the biggest and littlest things and once again practice is my catharsis. 

So I didn’t put anything up last week and honestly I didn’t make time for it.  I felt as the week went on that I was jumping from one thing to the next and nothing terribly big happened either.  Since I was last here though, I’ve done a podcast interview on “How did I get Here?” with Johnny Goudie and that should be up on 3/22 and I did a quick email interview with Miranda for her blog The Good Groupie check it out here:

http://thegoodgroupie.com/2016/02/24/the-one-band-blog-every-music-fan-should-be-reading/#more-4201

We’ve started working on a new song as a band which has a title called “This beast is alive and well” and I am not one to talk about my songs really ever because I want people to have their own experiences with them and not be biased towards my own perspective but this one is different.  

This song started as a fluke for us writing it. We just started jamming out to a rift that I had made up and from there we built upon it and it came together really quickly.  Something weird happened last week though when we were playing it...

For a quick background on this song, I have some lyrics written out at this point in time, i do not have the full song. I have the idea of the song I want to portray and the melody but nothing is nailed down. Usually when I am in these situations there’s something about playing with a band that brings out the best in my lyrically.  It’s like my body is able to produce the words and convey the energy that I wouldn’t be able to do on my own. 

Anyway, we get to the bridge of the song and I start yelling out “I will always be lonely, I will always be lonely as long as I can be myself” and repeat this once more. THIS SHIT FLOORED ME!!

WHERE THE FUCK DID THAT COME FROM???

IS THAT HOW I AM FEELING ABOUT MYSELF???

GODDAMMIT THAT IS FUCKING HEAVY!!

I’ve had to sit with this lyric for well over a week and it’s hard to sit and think about. It was even harder to write out and see what it looks like in my own handwriting.  It’s not easy to see and it’s not easy to say and yet when I sing it it feels right. 

I asked myself if I was going to edit it and I’m not. One of the things that I like about our band is that we are raw and I am probably the most sensitive of the bunch...(But that’s where the lyrics come baby!!)

Tonight though I had to explain this to the rest of the guys, what the song was about, and where my headspace is with things. It was easy and hard to explain it to them because when it comes down to songs and reasons for songs, everyone is open with them and no one has ever stomped on me explaining a song as they come from personal places. Which in turn I think makes us a great group of friends who trust each other. 

If anyone reading this is wondering where this lyric might’ve come from well, I’m 28 now and still have yet to be in any type of romantic relationship of substance or length. I was recently rejected by a girl that I felt like we were really hitting it off and might’ve swung too hard for the fences with her. (sent flowers the weekend before valentine’s day)  And while I didn’t and still don’t know this person that well, I hadn’t felt a connection like that in a long time. It really sucks to not be able to explore it. 

Silver lining: I think we have a really kickass new song that came out of it. Which is a joke that I’ve been making w/ Dan, Jason and PJ saying that there’s a conspiracy between them to introduce a new girl into my life about every 3 months to make sure I have some sadness with which to right lyrics. We are very dark humored people. 

In other news:

We have a couple of dates for SXSW. I was working on getting more but was told to cool off on it. At first I was upset about that because I kept backing out of gigs for us but now I’m better.  

When someone says “I can’t/don’t want to play this gig” I hear in my brain “I’M ABOUT TO LEAVE THE BAND BECAUSE YOU’RE AN ASSHOLE”. There’s no logical reason why it should go there with this group of dudes since everyone is pretty outspoken but it does.  I had to talk with Dan about that this week so we understood each other better and when he told me he was in for the long haul I couldn’t be more stoked! It’s a great feeling to not worry about people leaving. 

I think one of the reasons that I think this way was because I went through so many band members before. AND IT FUCKING SUCKS! there’s no real “advancement” that can be made with a rotating cast of dudes, unless you’re rich and can afford your own “advancement” (maybe I’ll write about that someday). 

Last 2 things:

We just got done with practice and had a dinner meeting with a really cool thing that might happen this Sunday. I have been asked to not say much more than that as their are competing organizations so we have to keep it on the DL. If this happens and we’re able to do it, it could be very awesome or it could be just something really cool that we did! But that’s basically the scale at this point in time. 

Lastly and congrats if you’ve made it this far! WE ARE HAVING OUR EP RELEASE PARTY ON JUNE 24th and the readers of this are going to be the first ones to know! You the real MVPs! We’ll be at Sidewinder that night and we are planning on blowing it out so please come out that night for the big one!

SHOW DATES:

3/15 Cheers 6PM

3/18 Shiner’s Saloon 1AM  https://www.facebook.com/events/454653948069840/

3/26 Blackheart Sometime that night not really sure when it’s free though

4/16 Stubb’s Whitman Reunion show https://www.facebook.com/events/1526295037666087/

4/22 Satellite Houston, TX WE ARE COMING HOUSTON!!

And sometime in May we’re playing in San Antonio it looks like.