#goodbye eva

Thank you for everything you do and supporting us for three years, Eva. 😔

I ended things with eva.. I told him how I felt and he said he didn’t feel the same and that he knew I have underlying feelings for him and he didn’t say anything because he just wanted to be friends. That hurts. I told him I can’t be his friend even tho he wants to keep me around.. idk the fact he wants to stay friends even after I said I had romantic feelings for him is a slap in the face because it shows he doesn’t care.. I even told him how I feel like he makes me feel like a burden to talk to… he said it’s because he’s socially awkward but idk.. it really suck it all ended .. I miss him a lot ngl but life goes on. I say I’m fine and when I don’t think about it I am fine. But when I think alone I’m not fine and I’m just sad and want to curl up in a ball. I miss telling him everything.. but I know ill hurt myself more if i stayed because i knew he wasnt interested and actively seeking other people which really hurt. idk im in a weird state where i want nothing to do with him, forget him even .. and then i also want him to suffer idk, ik its wrong to have the eye for an eye mentality but im angry and upset and hurt! i just wish i never started talking to him . i just feel a little empty rn