#good things!

First my first bloodwork since i started my controlled weightloss habit (3 months on-going) turned the cleanest its ever been. Even shit that was on the high end is now beneath of what it should be, I basically aced it and now I have 0 issues (outside of vitamin D but thats a neet's life for me). This has been a long time coming struggle for me and seeing that my method devised for my needs and my means works is the most rewarding thing ive gotten in a long time! (suck it herbivores) Actual 'weight' lost is merely a number that will keep going down and down until i'm back to a healthy scale (my method can adjust for my needs and I am supervised by a hormone doctor!)

Second, the reason why i suddenly dipped right after posting the meme a few hours ago is because I had a suprise audit at work and I really think I aced it, save for one minutia that my boss said it wouldn't really count (even though everyone knows what i did was right, its just a stupid corporate checklist screwing me here)

And lastly, I'm getting back into miniature painting, which was one of my biggest hobbies 'before the dark times' and a great signifier that I am getting out of depression territory. I will defo post them on here as I post about my ttrpg adventures and such, and because I like to boast.

Life can be so good, and I really hope you all get to rejoice as I do if you struggle with any of the above. Keeping at it, being disciplined, true to yourself, and working hard can turn up so many results in your life

Lifted heavy things. Put them down again. Was complimented on my half-a-haircut (don't ask) and my hefty back squats, and fist-bumped in the bicep. Gave a person a lift home (friend? Friend??). ✅✅✅✅✅✅

there’s a regular who comes into my work almost everyday and i know he’s coming from the gym that’s next door. he’s always in workout clothes and looked like he just worked out and he is so hot. big thick beard, tattoos, dark eyes, his arms and hands are fucking insane. today when i saw him i of course checked him out like usual but then the thoughts started.

my brain started spiraling about how some dude as in shape as him would obviously not be attracted to someone that looks like me. and as i started to feel myself sinking lower into those bad feelings some little voice in my head was like “well, who cares?” like yes…who cares if some random man who comes into work wants to fuck me…like how does that have any impact on me at all…