its 4 am and my eyes and eyelids hurt from being closed(???) and at the same time my body doesn't get the memo that it's bedtime because it's triggering a nausea+dizziness combo response to being hungry and I have to get up and find something to eat so I don't throw up and i am so tired my body has the most annoying energy system in the world where I am always tired but cant sleep unless it's against my will and i think i am going to explode and die and aaaaaahh hi tumblr i am venting to the tumblr void and this might be a rare disappearing post when my brain functions have returned after being awake next i will install a baseball bat above my bed to knock me out
















