I hate you so much. You were my friend for 15 years and then suddenly you don't want to be friends anymore? What kind of BULLSHIT is that!?  I know you moved far away but I actually thought we could still be best friends. But truth is, we stopped being best friends long ago. And you stopped being my friend the day, 2 years ago, when I told you my most personal thoughts and secrets. And instead of being there for me, you gave me a small hug and a speech about how you would hurt me if I ever thought about hurting myself again. The fuck did you think that would accomplish? That I would stop, just like that? And after that you pretended that nothing had ever happened, you pretended that I was okay. Cause I was smiling right? That's because I after what you said I never let anyone ever see how I felt. I opened up to two of my best friends and you both turned your back to me when I couldn't get 100% better right away.