its wild. it all started out as you denying me and i kept you at arms length. we had and still have so much in common/chemistry. we never met, but were a much made in heaven. we always ended up getting blocked from ACTUALLY BEING TOGETHER PHYSICALLY. it fucking sucks. its like we literally have to wait every blue moon to get a window, even trying it just never is enough from either side. i don't know man. she's literally the only woman i will truly love deeply, want to build a home with, grow together, but when? why not now? we must nature force us to wait for so long, but put an indescribable, impeccable bond between us. i don't know. i have so many mixed feelings about it all.