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Coffee with the wife... trying to keep my sanity. #kidsoutofschool #winter break #goingcraycray

Tonight ( it it )was crazy i got up and i was out of breathe. I had another panic attack once more. Im learning how to live with these things that spook me. But every night my dreams get deeper. I feel like i know where im going but at the same time im lost. I losses my mind. Then that’s when it hits me. My body starts to ache I feel like something sitting on me I start to break. I can’t move I can’t speak but I can still see everything. I can’t call for help or just roll out of bed. This frightens me this makes me feel like I’m crawling out of my own skin and it’s insane how this happens to me every single every single night and I’m so affected by it that you know they think I’m crazy over someone that I could only see in my dreams. at everybody that I have these sleep I guess authors that don’t let me sleep at night and supposedly they told me to forget about it that I always been lying and that I should give up on telling my little fantasy stories in that I’m a lunatic. don’t get me wrong they are don’t get me wrong they are right about my don’t get me wrong they are sure read about my fantasy stories sometimes I’ve even start to believe in them that I’m crazy or I’m a wild person or I just don’t belong here anymore. Well these stories are going to keep continue no matter what anybody says eventually I’ll find a way to cope with all this. to the next couple hours if I fall asleep I’ll be posting daily to see if I have any flukes in my path still awaiting for me to wake another night. for people to bring me down little by little I push him out of my way until them you know what I’ll tell my stories even more than ever now it’s time to break out of my shell. Till next time here comes another crazy dream.

So I have bipolar It's eating me alive I can't remember emails Or for why I Do not die It changes how my eyes see The inner part of me The inner part of you And all humanity It's clear as pure oxygen It doesn't tend to show Unless I have an episode Then I just explode So yes I have bipolar Some think I am crazy The only crazy thing I know Is i never will be free

I want to get away.