#godismyprotector

In case, like me, you’ve forgotten this truth today? Or life, today, has caused you to doubt.

We are cracked and chipped from our afflictions on all sides, but we are not crushed by them. We are bewildered at times, but we do not give in to despair. We are persecuted, but we have not been abandoned. We have been knocked down, but we are not destroyed.

2 Corinthians 4:8-9 VOICE

Our Father, so lovingly reminds us. Amen!

Overrated? I’ve been struggling with all my life (at least the parts I can remember). I know in part it’s due to my desire for instant gratification. Today, however, I had a different thought.

As most of you who know me know I’ve had gastric bypass surgery. I am trying to train my mind to think of food properly. By that I mean, what will I eat based on what does my body need? Not what has the highest sugar content or is the biggest portion. These were my biggest guidance questions before. And what we’re taught in this journey is stop eating when satisfied. Bigger question then one can imagine.

All this to say and make note (for me mainly in the future), I wonder if part of desiring something (food, clothing, objects, hugs) is more of a way You show us what we “need” and are lacking. Is it a tool where I’ve been using it as a driving force to feed my desire for instant gratification?

So tonight, going to bed I really wanted to eat. What exactly, I’m not sure. I had food for dinner and even dessert so I wasn’t “hungry “. But as I thought about what I did eat, I don’t believe my body was fed enough protein and therefore still craving substance. So what if my desire to buy clothes (my weakness) or pretty things for the house is a sign that my emotional or spiritual need isn’t being met? What do I need? And if I don’t give in to the instant gratification pull but use it as a tool to talk with You Lord, would I grow more, stronger...in You?

These are my thoughts as I go to bed tonight. In constant desire to be the woman You created me to be. Constant battle and desire to do things Your way, not mine and therefore different and uncomfortable. I love You, Father!

I’ll get back to you all as I pursue this thought process with God. For those of you I know and are just getting up...have a beautiful day! For those, like me, off to bed...rest in God’s presence.

Beautiful Impossibilities