saw a skinny girl after eating that whole onigiri

when you creep and you find something that makes you so sick to your stomach you want to throw up

"but everyone else.." just fucking stop! how everyone else views me isn't going to change how I view myself.

Wow. Okay... So it's like a week after my birthday and I'm just sitting here, reminding myself of why I have so much self hatred. Like I really, really don't like myself. Eighteen years and I've been picked on for probably...Sixteen of them. Mercilessly. Day after day...I've been called stupid, so I don't think I'm smart. I've been called ugly, so I don't think I'm at all pretty. I've been called a dyke, a fag, a nazi, heavy, slow, a waste of time, talentless....Horrible, horrible things. But...Even through all of that..The thing that bothers me the most is I was in a verbally abusive relationship. I was sixteen and just gotten over someone I had dated for a long time. This girl I dated...She was nice at first...But she kept saying all these things to me and about me. She called me abusive, she called my mother and said I was hitting her. She forced me to have sex with her, even though I told her I wasn't ready. She told me I should be put into a mental institution or maybe it would be best if I just killed myself. And my last girlfriend had the audacity to say one of our friend's problems with their ex were worse, which they might have been, instead of comforting me when I really needed her. So friends...If you're ever wondering why I'm always down on myself..Heres why.