I still don't believe in "a God" per say definitely not the Biblical god and I will refer to source and higher self energy as "God" or "the Goddess"

But especially Recently Ive been finding a lot of power, support and presence in and working with other varous dieties.

I love Lilith.

and wish to deepen my work with her...

I just hope she wants to work with me.

She was the first goddess to call me to work with her and I recognized her specific energy in my life in Fall 2017.

She was calling to me towards the end of my toxic ass relationship and i realized she was with me my whole life , i wish/hope i didnt also disappoint her bad when i went back to live with him again last year😪

I did ask her with tarot cards if she still wanted to work with me and they answer was a yes and the candle magic went well :)

I also love Persephone (and Hades)

and I feel enegies of both goddesses within me

I also love Kali. And Quan Yin.

and Ix Chel was a goddess i really appreciated too.

I got into Oshun and Yemeya as well.

Basat intrigues me. And so does Quetzalcoatl and Elegua.

And I want to learn more about Ishtar.🙂

Just now, I started learning about Loki and 😍😍🥰🥰

I believe I finally found a male god I feel connected to .

Also

the Sun/golden has been a recurring theme. So... sun gods to honor... so Im keeping my eye open :)

I aksed my ancestors through tarot "which diety you (my ancestors) think i should work with.." the responded with (indigenous/pagan) Sun (diety)😮

*edit: I want to add some Holy Christian and Biblical figures that I resonate with and work with although i am not Christian: Jesus Christ, Virgin Mother Mary, Noah and I have a special place in my heart for Santa Muerte. And some fallen angels like Lilith, as she is particularly described in the "real" Christian/Jewish religion/mythology as the first wife of Adam who ran away from Eden after being mistreated, and was then punished, banished from Eden, her rank revoked after refusing to submit to Adam and God.