#givemefaith

Hindi ko naman ginusto, pero ito ang nararamdaman ko.

Pagod. Pagod na sa lahat? Hindi na nga halos maka-usap.

Gusto kong mawala, gusto ko munang magpahinga.

Pero ang laging tanong, may mangyayari bang maganda? 

Sa pagbalik ko ba sa katotohanan, magiging maayos na? 

Hindi. Andun pa rin ang problema, 

Mararamdaman kong muli ang pagod, 

At sa huli, marerealize ko, 

Sinayang ko lang ang oras.

Dahil hindi ko nga naman matatakasan, 

Ang gawaing sa akin mismo nakalaan. 

Tatayo ako, at lalabanan ang nararamdamang gikapoy,

Hihingin muli ang apoy na nanggagaling sa’Yo.

Sometimes, the best thing to do is to pick up a guitar (or maybe just listen to worship songs through your phone), and simply be before the Father. I’ve come to learn that worship does more to our hearts than anything else. It brings me back to see the magnitude of my God, how wondrously infinite He is. Suddenly everything else just look so dim in the reality of God.

With so many things happening in the lives of others around me (how people feel so distant from God, suddenly emotions become more real than reality, how escaping from church/community seems to be the only answer etc.), my prayer was focused on this one theme: Give them faith. Not only for them, but for myself as well. “Give me the kind of faith that believes You are good, even when I can’t see it. Give me the kind of faith that believes Your promises still stands true, even when I don’t feel it. Give me faith!”

Maybe this is the prayer that you need as well. By all means, pray it! The world, along with its master, the father of lies, is constantly trying to shift our attention away from the Truth and to ourselves. It is so vital that we intentionally shift ourselves again. If you need to go to the washroom and pray in secret during your lunch breaks, go. If you need to pick up that guitar again and worship, go. If you need to start reading the Bible again and learning to love the Word again, go. No more excuses, no more laziness, no more passiveness. God gave us too much a prize for us to be comfortable and satisfied with where we are. That’s the lie the devil is selling us! And we have bought it without even realising it...

I’ve been meditating on Philippians 2:13 and gosh it is so powerful!

“For God is working in you, giving you the desire to obey Him and the power to do what pleases Him.”

We are not left alone to do all these with our own strength. If that were the case, forget about change. But the Father (Yes, God in Heaven) has literally given you the power and strength to obey Him and to do the things that will please Him!

I need you to soften my heart And break me apart

I need you to open my eyes To see that You’re shaping my life

All I am, I surrender

Give me faith to trust what you say That you’re good and your love is great

I’m broken inside, I give you my life

I need you to soften my heart And break me apart

I need you to pierce through the dark And cleanse every part of me

All I am, I surrender

Give me faith to trust what you say That you’re good and your love is great

I’m broken inside, I give you my life

‘Cause I may be weak But Your spirit’s strong in me

My flesh may fail My God you never will

I may be weak But Your spirit’s strong in me

My flesh may fail My God you never will

Give me faith to trust what you say That you’re good and your love is great

I’m broken inside, I give you my life

Give me faith to trust what you say That you’re good and your love is great

I’m broken inside, I give you my life

'Cause I may be weak But Your spirit’s strong in me

My flesh may fail My God you never will