#giutisu

okay but why now do I just imagine Sherlock the type who’d dodge your punch like it was nothing and be confused when you look so shocked LMAO

it depends on what he’s being asked about, of course, but yes, there are certain things phoenix would rather keep under lock & key, one obvious example being trucy & apollo being siblings, though that’s more to do with thalassa not being ready to reintegrate herself in their lives yet than anything else  ;     he doesn’t particularly want to keep it a secret, he’s actually itching to tell them the truth as soon as possible, but that’s neither here nor there.     that’s the usual red locks though  ;     the black locks are a entirely different.               the thing with black psychelocks is that they show when a person is hiding something even they themselves aren’t aware that they’re hiding, something that their mind & heart wishes to keep from everyone including their owner themselves, like a defense / coping mechanism.     phoenix is very much aware of most of which he hides, actively dodging subjects which he doesn’t want to discuss, speaking half - truths, giving vague answers & immediately digressing   ( this is especially prevalent in aa4 & hasn’t actually diluted all that much over the past two years ) .     there is, however, one thing which could potentially cause a few black locks to show, should it be touched on.     & that’s the actual full impact & extent of what the decade & a half up to just barely two years ago has done to him on a psychological level, i.e. trauma.               let’s have a quick rundown, shall we ??

iris & dahlia  :     the realization that he’d been manipulated for over half a year by someone he fully trusted & loved, & the fact that dahlia had tried to murder him &, when that failed, tried to frame him for murder ;

mia  :     seeing his mentor’s dead body & holding her shoulder only to feel the warmth slowly drain from her corpse ;

red white  :     going up against the man who he knows full well killed mia & said man laughing in his face, punching him, & subsequently accusing phoenix of the murder of mia ;

miles  :     experiencing firsthand the cruelty of what had become of his childhood best friend, twice, & only a few months later said friend being put on trial for murder, twice, & a few months later more, right after a trial that phoenix thought had proved just how well he & miles could work together if they put their heads together & sought after nothing but truth, finding out that miles had dropped off the face of the earth & being left thinking he’d died for roughly a year ;

matt engerde  :     his entire case, the blackmailing & the desperation to simultaneously do the right thing & ensure maya’s safety, but these two conflicting with each other & it tearing him apart ;

iris & dahlia   ( again ) :     that chaotic mess of a case, phoenix worrying about maya’s safety to the point where he tried to run across a burning bridge without even thinking about it, on the final day of the trial being all but convinced that maya was dead no thanks to dahlia ;

zak gramarye & kristoph gavin  :     zak’s case combined with kristoph being the biggest ass to ever exist costing phoenix his job & his reputation & then spending seven fucking years pretending to be friends with the guy he knew was responsible for his disbarment, gathering Receipts on his ass, & 7 years later zak   “ disappear in the middle of my own trial ”   gramarye showing up out of the blue to hand off a letter of rights for trucy & to ruin phoenix’s Second career, by accusing him of cheating, which is exactly how phoenix’s first career was ruined.

As much as Simon hated to admit it, being around the detective was... difficult, to say the least. Sure, he was glad the man had survived, unable to imagine what unspeakable horrors the Phantom might have done to him. At the same time, just seeing Fulbright’s face made the prosecutor uneasy, and for good reason. He was trying, really trying, to push himself past that so that he’d be able to work peacefully with the other man. It wasn’t as if he could avoid Bobby, after all -- their paths would cross eventually.

“Disrespectful. Shaking my head.” (FFFFFFFFFF GDI!!!! NERDS)