Struggling with the ignorant and growing Marijuana: The story of a strange purple haired transsexual hippy woman living in Colorado
I would have to say my strangeness is my superpower. I was the weird kid you remember from childhood. The one that did not seem to fit in with anyone.The one the teachers scorned because they did not fit in the box as well as the other students.
I was taken aside at recess for emulating the girls and scorned and hated by the boys.I did not know the difference....this was my reality.I was made to believe that I was a horrible person, That I was stupid ,and that I was unworthy of love and acceptance.They were all but convinced that all this was my choice.My response.. repression and disconnection from people around me and myself.I gave up on this reality.I fostered a strong and vibrant imagination.My personal escape from anxiety and pain. Authority wanted to hurt me in front of my peers. The girls mocked me and the boys chased me off for being a sissy and being different.I hated everything girly because I wanted to be part of it so bad it literally hurt.
I now say fuck living a disingenuous life... I am happy.I simply fucking refuse to live in my own shadow anymore.You have an issue with my gender expression? I offer you a nice brimming bowl of go fuck yourself.I am not a happy ambassador of the transgender community.I will slap the shit out of you before you beat me to death and drag my body behind a car...why? Because I could give a flying fuck what your damage is. You want to say that I am a man trying to edge in on your space? Great... I really don't feel it is fair I have to take ownership of every antiquated, self destructive thing that this misogynistic culture has wrought upon this world. Believe me.. it hates me and what I stand for more than you can ever imagine. lets face it..What I stand for fucks with the insecurities of the weak minded and the calloused heart.
a lot of men want to scorn my existence in social conversations or on discussion boards.. They call me a thing or an IT. They think I am out to fool them.. I don't do this to get you or me off idiots.. vindication for your insecurities you feel after fapping to “Shemale Porn” or sending me the millionth unsolicited dick pick is not my responsibility. grow the fuck up...
I now allow my self to be love and be loved becasue I deserve to be loved.
I am all soft and squishy and happy :) apposed to being all hard and numb.
I haven fallen in love with being alive.
I strive to cherish each now like I will never have another
I take the time to let my friends and family know how much I am grateful to have them in my life
I surround myself with amazing people who love me for who I am.
I have learned that the most important thing in this world is other people.The rest is truly a bunch of arbitrary shit.
I love composing piano music
I love growing dankest bud I possibly can. I cherish and love my green ladies and it shows with the flowers they produce :)
I am the friend I would want to have.
I will offer a shoulder to cry on