#gilgapinions

Yea i know that may be obvious to some but i struggle with understanding duality. Idk i dont have the means to box him anyway.

Idk my homies im wondering if Gilgamesh dallies between his duty as a king and his personal desires, especially as an arbriter of desires who leads humanity but then also does the wildest ass most human things sometimes. Like is he toeing the line between his duty and personal desires? Like the tyrannical king can be seen as both a persona but also a way to release some of his darker desires too. Maybe sometimes he performs as a king but sometimes maybe not. Guess maybe the king could be his main identity.

Is Gilgamesh a king because he's Gilgamesh, or a king because that's his role? 🤣

I dont know ok i mean why wouldn't a king with a role as heavy as his also have some desires, make mistakes, try to guide ppl but maybe not always in ways that others understand... hell maybe not even in the actual best ways either 🤣🤣, be a dick sometimes and i guess have feelings too. And still keep on learning about the world and his own place in it.

the characterisation of his worse aspects and more unlikeable sides. the more tyrannical, fearsome side that will obtain what he desires at any cost, the side who can be destructive when bored, what he's capable of doing when things lack value to him... fsn doesn't hold back in making him a true antagonist.

stay/night may show sides of Gilgamesh that are ugly and difficult to see, but that's why i also really enjoy this iteration of Gilgamesh. the later iterations add more nuance and give more explanations to Gilgamesh's more unsavory aspects; but in my opinion those sides of Gilgamesh shine so brightly specifically because fsn Gilgamesh was such a nightmare.

to me that's what makes Gilgamesh in CCC all the more powerful. in my personal opinion, fate stay night and zero can show how terrifying and cold he can be when he desires and has interest in someone in a more dehumanising sense, where he plays with them like toys and dangles them around- or they become mere pieces in the pursuit of his grand goals.

CCC shows how massive and huge it is when Gilgamesh gradually lets someone in, valuing them as more than just a 'thing' or a 'treasure to experiment with', how amazing it is when he wholly and fully values them.

I struggled to reconcile myself with how complex and multi-faceted he is, but after my many years running the gilgablog- i realised that's actually what makes him kinda cool -and weirdly very humanistic- in a sense-for he isn't as fixed nor indomitable as he presents himself to be.

Hi!!! Thank you for messaging me ☺ I really appreciate it! It's been a long time since I did askmeme on gilgablog so thank you for requesting him (i keep most fate thoughts private)! Sorry I will probably write a whole massive paragraph about him XD

My Gilgamesh opinions are very subjective here so they may not all be accurate, which is why I enjoy this ask a lot ^^

Sexuality Headcanon: I headcanon him as bi/pan, like yeah there's no denying he is also attracted to women, but his devotional relationship with Enkidu and kinky pleasure yuetsu time with Kirei is every bit as canon in my opinion!!!

Even his creepy obsession with Saber really hints to me personally that Gilgamesh may not discern his initial sense of attraction primarily by gender- I believe he may be attracted to people based off intangible traits that link to his personal sense of values as well; which cannot be as simply measured as gender.

So in my opinion GILGAMESH IS RATED E FOR EVERYONE!

Gender Headcanon: Though he is masc, man he/him I also feel as if Gilgamesh's gender is also just 'GILGAMESH'. Sometimes I wonder if Gilgamesh would see himself as beyond the convention of gender.

Also I heard from someone that gender can be very diverse in Ancient Mesopotamia so it would be really cool to see where Gilgamesh would slot his gender identity there... also can his pronouns be king of heroes/ king as well! I feel like he really defines himself by his role more than gender per se, and in one fate hanafuda game he says gender doesn't matter ☺👍

i personally think comparing both gils is very difficult because of how different their circumstances are. to me, it's like putting the same man in two different environments. what i'd love to consider is whether caster would or wouldn't have behaved in the same way in the fuyuki incidents. personally, i think he would've... i feel like he's only tamer because he has a duty to serve as a wise king now; and carries the needs of his people on his back. can't quite fuck around as much when he's saddled with responsibility.