#giftposey

"My Danny,

I realize that this anniversary, seeing as it is our first year, is supposed to be celebrated with paper. So, what better way to show you my love than to write you a letter on paper. I suppose I’ve chosen this because despite the fact that I see your incredibly handsome face every day, there are some things that I know I haven’t had a chance to tell you. There is no doubt in my mind that this has been my favorite year because I’ve gotten to spend it with you… but I do have to admit that it’s also been an extremely difficult one as well. Our relationship was still quite new when I felt as though I had thrown a wrench in it with my problems that have followed me around with my mother. I was feeling very down and broken, completely unworthy of someone as kind and sweet as you, but you- being the genius you are- helped me see otherwise. For the first time, I was not completely reliant on myself to eventually put myself back together and it was strange and unfamiliar… but extremely welcoming. Of course I thought that that would be the most trying time in our very new relationship and I… was wrong. As incredibly hurt as I was in the summer, and as close as I came to wanting to shut down and revert back into feeling as though I had done something wrong- something that warranted feeling so unloved in that moment- I couldn’t. I had grown and changed and found myself loving things about myself that I wouldn’t have even thought to if you hadn’t shown me how much I have to give to the world. Yes, I was mad and angry and upset… but I knew that I wasn’t unlovable. I had proof of that sitting right beside me, holding my hand. Besides, I remind myself everyday that all of the events of each of our lives… they simply led us right to each other. And because of that, I would not want to change a single detail about my life. I only want to think about all the wonderful and incredible things we will do, both individually and together, in the years to come. You are my star that lights up my life. I love you.