#gideon 2

Location: Gideon’s work space Time: 23rd of February, morning Status: Closed, @gideonprewxtt

Edgar rarely lost too much sleep over other people’s personal issues. Especially not when they were adults and knew what was best for them themselves. The same very much applied to the Prewett twins and the fight they had had, the built tension that had never been resolved, only worsened. He didn’t like interfering in matters he couldn’t fully comprehend, only knew one side of, and in this case, he also trusted Fabian to know what was the right thing to do.

But ever since the talk with Regulus, or perhaps something else that also had happened that night, he couldn’t stop thinking about the helplessness in the face of fate. How there was a universal Truth, and humans had so little access to it, they couldn’t even begin comprehending what it meant to make ‘the right decision’ for the ‘right path of their destiny’. How much could one change one’s own fate? How much was one merely the victim?

The questions kept circling through his mind -- and the only answer he found was: Gideon wasn’t a victim. He had chosen to reject Fabian’s attempt to open himself up to him, had refused to listen, to put himself in the shoes of his brother, understand what his illness contained. Had made it about himself, writing himself into the history books as a victim -- but he wasn’t.

Barely sleeping that night, Edgar read book after book, drank tea after tea, the heavy little necklace with the locket around his wrist, catching himself staring at it more often than he realised. Sometimes it was as though it was whispering to him, but whenever his gaze met it, it silenced. As though waiting... Never had he resented being alone as much as tonight.

He put it around his neck when he went to bring to Gideon the next day. Gideon. His thoughts were even darker now. Gideon, the victim. Gideon, who chose his steps by just how much he wanted into the Inner Circle. Gideon, who brought a child -- this kitten! -- into this war. Gideon, who heard about Ainsley and James and made it about himself. Gideon, who spoke about having to work things out and then worsened it instead.