Hiiiii! I hope you’re thriving rn and experiencing only pleasant things ❤️ I just wanted to check in since it’s been a while but this is in no way an attempt to get an explanation or to force you to come back (or even respond at all). I really love you’re fics and I think you’re extremely talented! Dirty Hands is my fave fic out there and I’m so greateful to you for writing it! You should feel so proud of yourself for your works and creativity. Many people loved them but what’s most important is that you loved them as well! I hope you’re ok and I’m sending you peace and love 😘
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It seriously aches so bad when one of you sends me a message about how much you miss my stories... But in a good way, I promise!!! 😭🩷
I've been struggling with a few personal issues, stuff like changing jobs (looking for one, fingers crossed 🤞🏻) and my mental health for the past few months. Mentally it's been a little dreading, with depression and anxiety, but I'm working hard to make progress and having you all checking in (so many of you sent me messages, ily all so much 😭) makes it all so much better and makes me feel really special and loved.
Anxiety made writing hard, though. I love Dirty Hands with all my heart and the idea of writing something for it that wasn't as good as I hoped made me run away from it and let it sit back in my drafts for months. I've made progress and have been writing more lately, but again, I put a lot of pressure on myself to make it as good as I can.
But having you all asking about it and saying so many kind things about my stories makes me melt and quite literally, wanna cry. It shows me that, even if in this microcosm of Tumblr, my stories have meaning to someone. And reading comments, reblogs and messages about it always makes my day just a little bit brighter.
All that to say... I am writing, and I know you're all super kind and overly patient with me, but I'm feeling better now, and I'm ready to trust myself again and get back to writing.
Hopefully the eighth part of Dirty Hands will be coming this weekend, and I'll try to also (as I do some reading to prevent plot holes) edit and fix some stuff on the previous parts. So I'll be reblogging them as I edit 🫶🏻
Maybe this whole sentimental journey doesn't make sense to some of you, "Dude it's literally just fanfiction!". But you all are just so kind and so extremely sweet that I can't help but really see each and every single one of you as my friends, who are always there to cheer me up when I post something. So thank you all, really. You have no idea how actually meaningful (and quite lifesaving) it is to read your words of encouragement, I can really feel the love from here 🥹
Becoming a writer is a big, huge dream of mine, and having my little friends from over here being so nice gives me the courage I need to pursue it professionally 🩷
I love you all and I can't wait to share more with you, see you soon!
Love, Ghost 🩷🫶🏻











