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It seriously aches so bad when one of you sends me a message about how much you miss my stories... But in a good way, I promise!!! 😭🩷

I've been struggling with a few personal issues, stuff like changing jobs (looking for one, fingers crossed 🤞🏻) and my mental health for the past few months. Mentally it's been a little dreading, with depression and anxiety, but I'm working hard to make progress and having you all checking in (so many of you sent me messages, ily all so much 😭) makes it all so much better and makes me feel really special and loved.

Anxiety made writing hard, though. I love Dirty Hands with all my heart and the idea of writing something for it that wasn't as good as I hoped made me run away from it and let it sit back in my drafts for months. I've made progress and have been writing more lately, but again, I put a lot of pressure on myself to make it as good as I can.

But having you all asking about it and saying so many kind things about my stories makes me melt and quite literally, wanna cry. It shows me that, even if in this microcosm of Tumblr, my stories have meaning to someone. And reading comments, reblogs and messages about it always makes my day just a little bit brighter.

All that to say... I am writing, and I know you're all super kind and overly patient with me, but I'm feeling better now, and I'm ready to trust myself again and get back to writing.

Hopefully the eighth part of Dirty Hands will be coming this weekend, and I'll try to also (as I do some reading to prevent plot holes) edit and fix some stuff on the previous parts. So I'll be reblogging them as I edit 🫶🏻

Maybe this whole sentimental journey doesn't make sense to some of you, "Dude it's literally just fanfiction!". But you all are just so kind and so extremely sweet that I can't help but really see each and every single one of you as my friends, who are always there to cheer me up when I post something. So thank you all, really. You have no idea how actually meaningful (and quite lifesaving) it is to read your words of encouragement, I can really feel the love from here 🥹

Becoming a writer is a big, huge dream of mine, and having my little friends from over here being so nice gives me the courage I need to pursue it professionally 🩷

I love you all and I can't wait to share more with you, see you soon!

Love, Ghost 🩷🫶🏻

"Then Dave and Joel making me do things I think no man deserves, but Dave and Joel...

"Come here, baby." Dave calls you, his voice husky and low, and you look at Joel, silently asking for his permission.

'Go on, baby. And remember: You say (safeword) and we both stop." He reassures you. "I won't let him move a finger without you allowing it." He whispers, kissing your lips gently.

"I don't wanna have to call you again." Dave says, his voice even lower, and you walk towards him, but he shakes his head, and you stop. "I want you to crawl to me." He says sternly.

Your heart slams against your chest, and you look back at Joel, waiting for his approval. He nods, his hand sliding down to his pants, giving himself a gentle squeeze as he sees you dropping to the floor, slowly and sensually crawling towards Dave.

You stop at his feet, sitting on your heels, waiting for his next command.

"That's a good girl you have, Joel." Dave chuckles, pulling your hair behind your ear tenderly.

'And she's gonna show you just how good she can be."

Ooooohhh, I see.

That's a wip of mine! I posted this snippet to show another anon what I had on threesomes (because they said they didn't like), but I still haven't posted it, sorry!

Tell me moooooore!!! Do you remember the setting, or a bit of the context?

I already read a few amazing @boliv-jenta 's Joel and Dave fics. One where the reader kills Dave with her pussy and the other where Dave and Joel are reader's neighbors and it's a fight over who gets to have her when... I love hate Liv, she destroyed my life 🤧

Bestie nooooo, don't do this meeeeeeeee 🥺🤧

You can't say you don't like a good threesome fic before reading @milla-frenchy's amazing fic with Joel and Javi Peña. It's literally the hottest thing I've ever read!!!

Below the cut I'll give you a tiny little taste of what I have on threesomes and after reading them you can put me in the corner of threesome shame if you still think it's a bad idea. But know I'LL BE IN TEARS!!!

I got this ask a while ago, when I posted the most recent part of my Dave York x tutor!Reader story, and it got me thinking...

I also love their dynamics and I also kinda don't want Carol anymore. Sooooo I kinda wrote a piece of smut with Joel, reader and Tess...?

And that lead me to write a Joel, reader and Dave...?

They're both unfinished, but if you guys are interested in it I'd love to finish them and post them for you 🩷

Also, I've been playing around with the idea of stepdad!Joel...? Even in the story with Dave, and I wanna know what y'all think about that, please don't ignore me, I'll cry if you do 🤧

Oh, babyyyy I'm so sorry 🤧

I promise I'll give you more dirty hands so you can stop rereading it (it's gonna be angsty-ish, but...). I'm trying my best but everything seems to get in the way of it, but I promise I'll post another chapter soon. I got plans of finishing the series still this month, so fingers crossed 🤞🏻

Good luck on your exams, you got this, I'm cheering for you 🩷🩷🩷

Hii 🩷

Thanks for the heads up! I've been a little all over the place recently and forgot to update my masterlist. But I've fixed it and now everything's there (even a new little Joel series I'm working on 🫣)