#gf l.

"hi. I'm meeting up with this dude that I don't know [which went "great" the last times I did smt similar] that pays me to go shopping with him. Please call the police if I stop replying [although I haven't given u my new address bc I just moved] haha"

(for reference: it's our second attempt at a relationship and the last time it did end in a catastrophe. This was over a year ago. Soooo... We'll see)

Anyway. I'm aro. So I struggle a lot with her being the complete opposite. Thought about getting her sum red roses. And I know a few things that she rly wants to do, sooooo .. I'll try to stick to that.

I'm gonna see my gf for the first time in over a year next week. She's genuinely so cute and loving. (I struggle extremely with returning that amount of love/positive affirmation thing)

She asked about a certain picture that I had done with my ex fiance (who upped and left like a week ago). (Basically me and them kissing while I was wearing a long blonde wig/sitting on their lap) I told her that we def can recreate it (bc I knew that that was what she wanted / intended with the question)

I'm gonna travel alone, so that's gonna be smt. My anxiety will probably kill me, so will my physical state. But @yumekuipup is gonna bring me to the train station and L is gonna pick me up.

I'm so nervous, seriously.

There's so much back story that would explain why I'm nervous, but yeah.