#gentledomme

I went a little softer this time.

We met up at 9pm on Discord and I'd instructed him to be plugged, collared, and wearing a tee that matched his cute leaf collar 🌿

I was so excited to finally see him. We hadn't played in 2 days and there he was in a colourful tee, leaf collar around his pretty throat, and beautiful brown eyes all eager 🥹 So cute

Knowing his balls were so full didn't help 😂 I was in a hurry to play with my little toy

We've been watching Spartacus during our sessions and we were finally starting Season 3. So he put on his cute pink cage then we synced up and I instructed him to sit on his wand on my favourite setting so he could feel it through the plug 😂 His reactions are always the best. Watching him groan and his slender body jolt in surprise hehehe All the little *oh, fucks* that escaped

By the first 20 mins of giggling and not even paying attention to the episode 😂 we both knew our original plans for the night were fucked. He was way too pent up to last the full 3 hours we'd agreed on

I tortured him with different settings, forcing him to watch the sex scenes in the show, and giggling the whole time. Talking filth in his ear while his eyes were closed and he was holding on for dear life. The episode finally ended and I set him free. Watching him pry that cage off with shaky hands was amazing 😂 I kept torturing him with my words. He writhed and squirmed so much that his poor temporary collar kept spinning around his neck; it was hilarious! He came so hard and collapsed in his chair sideways hehe He's definitely gonna have to rewatch the episodes today!

I gave him a short break to catch his breath and clean up. We laughed and cracked jokes while I watched him move around on wobbly legs. My little baby giraffe 🦒 then it was time for round 2 muahahahaha

For the second episode, I made him stroke his pretty cock. He sat on the small couch so I could admire all of him. I instructed him to play with various parts of himself and he got into it so readily. I made him fuck his fist; that was a costly mistake 💀 Watching him pump those hips and his heavy balls bouncing just for me. I wanted to crawl through the screen and ride the fuck out of him. Ngl I got the urge to watch him cum so I ordered him to explode before the end of the episode. I'm only human 😔

He was so exhausted and high on that orgasm bliss. And that, ladies and gentlemen, and everyone else in-between, is when he quickly reached out for the chocolate chip cookies. I watched him eat till his face suddenly scrunched up in confusion on that salty last bite 😂 I thought he hadn't cleaned up, but I didn't say anything to see if he'd ever notice. I was rewarded when he burst out laughing 🤣 I'm pretty sure we gasped for air like idiots for at least 15 mins. Then we talked about how little he remembered of the show haha

I couldn't wait to say hi. :>

Three things today:

After thinking about it for a week, I started this blog to practice communication. When I meet you,  I'd like to be well-versed in sharing thoughts and emotions so that it's easier for us to connect. I know lots of media content is driven by smoldering eyes and reading peoples' minds, but I fully disclose that I suck at both. Through this journaling practice, I plan to learn how to reflect better and learn about myself and others.

The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. More on this later.

I am working on not sounding like a mansplainer when I'm explaining something. Also, I'm working on not sounding patronizing when trying not to sound like a mansplainer. Bottom line, I'd like to share what I know (or geek out about it) and want to create the best environment to learn what others know in real, authentic ways.. 

I look forward to snuggling with you. Ugh, you don't even know! Sending you all good vibes! I…can’t wait to meet you, even though I must,

'Pressure', I think. I held her and pressed my tits against her back. I took deep breaths. 50, 100, enough to where she coregulated and fell asleep. I thought good thoughts (You're safe. I have you. It's okay. Calm. Let it out, let it go.)

Money.

I had to go through Domme burnout to find this out. It got so bad that I started hating everything about gentleDomme but then I took a break and realized it's not the Domme style itself - it is the disrespect (especially online and from men).

You want a kind, nurturing Domme? To take the wordly worries away, get you in the comfy subspace so you can just relax and get affirmation after a stressful day? Protect her. Provide for her. Take her wordly stress out so she can do the same for you. This goes for vanilla partnerships as well but double with kinky - yes I am myself genuinely kinky, but if I am stressed out, I'm in no mood to play with you.

So I am softly rebranding into Findom since the assholes HATE that It is a good deterrant to scare away those who don't care to sub (who claim to be submissive but come to you their demands first, looking for service top more than Dominant) but the more I have had good experiences with my paying submissives, I have found a new spark to being a Gentle Domme. It was never the style or Dommy kink I started to detest - it was the disrespect. It was the realization that truly! Men only respect what they pay or work for. Kinky / submissive men are no exception, and money is the only true way to power exchange (especially online).