I died slowly as I watched my body change. Suffering from pain that I would never imagine existed before. I was not dying, this would not kill me. But some days I hoped it would. I’m tired of you popping up like an unwanted visit, it’s been awhile so you check in to remind me of your annoyance. You’re a nuisance. I’m just ready for this to end. Give me my life back!

The life I had before you came along. It’s been awhile, I just want to be back on my throne. On top of the world. Happy and normal…

What is normal? Who is normal? I don’t actually know but I don’t want to be THIS! This person I see in the mirror now has no resemblance to the me that I knew before. Let me be her…without you.

No matter what I say or what I do, you will always be a piece of me. To an ordinary eye you will never be seen. Only between you, me and intimacy. I have  to accept you, I have to love me.  I need to do these things so I can get back to being me. 

I accept you as apart of my life for eternity.