#gendou.com

I started visiting a little website called Gendou.com when I was 17 years old. I chose the name Nai as my username. I picked the name from an original character I was writing at the time. He got his name from a trick of the Japanese language: nai essentially turns any word into a negative. Adding -nai to a word or phrase turns it against itself, makes do into don’t and can into can’t. The…

I don’t really want to post this in Facebook notes, because I know not many would read it but somehow a lot of people would read it. But when they see the title, they knew it’s me and my whining days of trying to make Gendou.com work when I’m overworking myself out.

Ever since Shirley introduce me to Corgis, I’ve always thought that I am them. I am hyper, I am crazy, I bark like shit, and as a dog, I’m loyal as hell. Hell, I’ve been waiting for senpai as we speak. It’s been 2 years now. Senpai is taken and committed. So, I’m like a doggie in this situation, Hachiko per say.

-I forgot what to say because work just came through-

Ever since I’ve joined Gendou.com, I’ve improved myself throughout the years. There’s the ups and down, the attention of having a lot of friends and then finding out most of them turn out to be not what you may see, but nonetheless, they are good people.

Some turned out to be the people that you’ll stick with after years of not sight-seeing in Gendou. Hell I’ve been with the Gendounian Malaysians for about 3 years now. We’ve always have annual meet up at the Comic Fiesta convention. It all started when Jo and some of us decides to meet up for the very first time. Way before smartphones were a viral thing. Forums were the one where we communicate and decides planning and talk about recent issues.

Now? Now with all these technology and busy lifestyle all of us have, just changed the whole concept.

Throughout the breakthrough of smartphones, there’s a few numerous people tried to make a Gendou.com app. I still remember when Link tried once. And then came another person who actually did it but there were not much words going on. This may seems that they are busy with their lives, but for me. I, when I’m passionate on something, I’ll make sure that there are no ways to make it survival then only I gave up on the thing.

Which leads us to where I am finally going to let Gendou.com, my fond memories of it, go away. My worries of trying to make people think that Gendou.com is still there, we just want, need you to be there.

There are portholes in Gendou right now. But nobody seems to take the pleasure to fix it.

I’ve always trying to make things work for Gendou, but the Gendounians gave me a false hope. Their comments sometimes makes me saying “I’ll show them that this could work. I’ll show them that I won’t give up.” Yet, most of the time it’s “Holk shut up. Just gave up. You’re wasting your time. You’re just doing this to feel the empty hole gap in your misery lonely life.”

Now you know why sometimes I’m so depressed.

Since I’ve been busy with freelance by myself, and I’ve recently realised I’ve unfollowed my senpai’s tumblr, I’ve always been dedicated to get to know her but never did. I’ve decide to say, good bye to all the projects I’ve always wanna work for Gendou.com and to senpai, if you’re happy, that’s all good to me. :)

Being said that, I’m still trying to make the t-shirt workable atleast in Malaysia. Once that’s settle, I’ll try to make it international.

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