#genderfluid!dan

"When will I see you again sweetie?" He asked me as I buttoned up my shirt.

"Depends on you, honey." I said, insisting on the word 'honey'. He chuckled a bit and I smiled.

"You do know that I'm in the mafia." He said with a much more serious voice and I sighed.

"Yeah I know. I've heard of you in that bar we met." I looked back at him and he nodded. "But there's nothing serious between us so it's ok." I said with a smile and he frowned. "Do you not want it to be serious?"

I was taken aback a bit. Wasn't he supposed to almost be the boss of the mafia? Had he really gotten attached to me after such short time? We literally had sex like six times. That's nothing in a man's life.

But anywho that was the perfect opportunity for me to get close to him. Well I already had gotten close to him. But just not in the way I was supposed to.

"That's not what I said and you know it." He smiled. "When will it become serious then?"

I shrugged.

"Depends."

"On what?" I smiled.

"I'll see you later Lester." I said while getting up and opening the door.

"That pun was shit."

"Just like your face." I turned around and looked at him and smiled.

"I'll call you, okay?" I said and he smiled. "Yeah."

Walking out of his apartment, I started thinking.

This mission wasn't what I thought it was going to be.

Phil Lester.

Supposedly the toughest mafia member in the whole country -if not world- was in fact a huge sap.

That was a plot twist.

I hurriedly got back to the hotel I was staying at.

After Phil's minions had seen where I lived, I could no longer come back home. But it was ok, I was used to it with the job I had.

Phil.

I shook my head and went up the stairs to my room. Putting the card in, I walked in. I immediately started searching for cameras and other stuff that Phil's minions could have put to spy on me.

After thoroughly searching the small hotel room and bathroom and finding nothing I finally got changed into something comfier. AKA a small skirt and a low hanging shirt with some huge and warm socks.

Cosy.

I laid down on my small bed and sighed a huge breath out.

Was I getting too attached? I mean, Lester was indeed good-looking.

And nice.

I mean, the first time we fucked all he did was ask if I was okay and if nothing hurt.

He was too sweet.

I wasn't prepared.

This sweet persona wasn't what I was expecting. But I still needed to complete my mission.

Those documents where a question of life or death. For all of my group.

Phil Lester.

We had gotten close over time. Well over the week that we've spent seeing each other and fucking.

But still. No one had ever been close to me.

I usually had to fuck with people for my missions. Using my looks for greater good was a regular thing.

But usually, it was a quick fuck and go. No small talk and overall no feelings.

But Phil Lester was something else.

He always insisted on talking a bit before and then kissing a bit to ease into the sex.

I had never seen that.

And then during the act it was always some sweet words, vanilla and just slow...

And after was the absolute worst. Because he always cleaned the both of us up and insisted on cuddling me for a bit. And he always asked me if it hurt, if it felt good, if he did good.

It was pathetic. And cute. But pathetic.

He was considerate.

Phil Lester was a softy.

As a working agent, I should've considered this a good thing. Because this mission would be way easier.

But as Dan, I just couldn't think about anything but Phil's eyes after sex. They were twinkling and... Loving almost.

They were almost saying 'I want to love and protect you'.

It was unsettling...

I jumped as my phone started ringing. I must've fell asleep.

I quickly grabbed it and answered : "Hello, who is this?"

That's how I always started my calls. I had been instructed to do so during my formation.

If the answer to this sentence was 'It's Josh; Joshua' or any name starting by a 'J' then I knew it was one of my bosses or colleagues.

A few months have passed since the cheating incident with Phil parents. Dan and Phil’s relationship has been stronger than ever since then. They went to several more dinners with Phil’s parents as well as with Dan’s parents, even with both sets of parents together. For Dan it was nice to have more people than just Phil that accepted him for who he is. Dan certainly wouldn’t have minded if Phil was a part of his forever.

Dan’s POV

“So Daniel James Howell, will you marry me?”

I looked at Phil in the eyes. His eyes were sparkling and there was a huge grin on his face. This man that I love so much was asking me to marry him. My Phil was asking me to marry him. I never wanted anything more than this. Oh I had so much to plan! What was my outfit going to look like? Should I wear a suit or dress? My thoughts wandered to everything I had to plan for the wedding. I wanted it to be just perfect.

Phil cleared his throat. “Uh Dan? Please say something.”

“Oh sorry! Of course I’ll marry you. I love you. I just excited with all I have to plan!” I said with a grin and started skipping happily towards our bedroom.

Phil calls me back. “Wait Dan! I still have to put on the ring silly.” Phil said with an amused expression on his face.

“Oh right.” I watched Phil slip the ring onto my finger. The ring was kind of like 2 silver bands interwoven together. One band had dark blue gems and the other band had pink gems.

“Sorry that’s it’s a bit stereotypical. With the blue gems representing a boy and pink gems re-”

I stopped Phil with a kiss. “Stop. It’s perfect. I love you. Now can I go back to planning?”

“I hate you. You are such a girl sometimes.” Phil teased.

I rolled my eyes. “You love me.” I poked his nose and batted my eyelashes in the most feminine way I thought possible.

“I do.”

“Save that for later, Philly.” I gave Phil a little wave and continued my skip towards our bedroom.

~~~

I was pacing around me and Phil’s room. I just spent literally 5 hours looking at wedding dresses. I pondered over tuxedos as well, but I decided I will wear a dress no matter how I’m feeling on our wedding day. None of the dresses seemed right. Why did wedding dresses have to be white? If I had my way I would have them to be black. But then everyone would say I’m mourning. It wasn’t just the color though. Some were too girly, some were not girly enough, and some were just completely not my style. Maybe I’ll just have a custom dress. Yeah I think I’ll do that. I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn’t notice Phil standing in the doorway.

“Hey Dan. Want to watch movie with me?”

“Yeah sure sounds good.” I said distractedly.

Phil walked in and started to reach for my laptop. “What do you fancy watching?”

It took me a second to realize what Phil was doing. Right before Phil was within reach of my laptop, I launched myself from across the room and slammed down the lid of my laptop.

Phil looked startled. “O-okaay. I guess you don’t want to watch a movie?” Phil asked uncertainly.

“No I do! S-sorry I j-just have a surprise for you. I don’t want you to know yet!”

“Alright let’s go watch in the lounge then.” Phil said and pulled me up to my feet.

~~~

I couldn’t believe this day has come. My wedding day. I was about to get married to Phil fucking Lester! I straightened out my dress and walked out of the car to the park where were about to get married. My heels kept getting stuck in the grass. Fuck how did people walk in these regularly? After what seemed like an hour I reached what could only be described as the aisle. My dad was waiting for me at start of it. Phil stood at the front on one side of the marriage officiant positively beaming. Martyn, Phil’s brother and best man stood behind him. Louise, my maid of honor stood on the other side of the officiant. I gave Phil a little wave. He waved back. Then the music started playing. My dad hooked his arm onto mine and started leading me up the aisle. Oh god this was actually happening.

Phil’s POV

Holy cheesefingers! Dan looked gorgeous. He refused to let me look at what dress he picked out beforehand. It was the most amazing wedding dress I have ever seen. At first glance I thought it was a regular wedding dress, but it was far from it. The top bit was sort of like a sleeveless white tuxedo and it connected to a pleated skirt. It all flowed nicely together and suited Dan so well. He even left his hair curly! That was so sweet of him to do that for me. I couldn’t believe I was marrying this person.

Dan POV

The marriage officiant was saying all the normal things you were supposed to say at a wedding. Me and Phil wrote our own vows. I was so nervous, but I wanted the officiant to hurry up. I just wanted to be married to Phil already.

“Daniel Howell, please state your vows.” Everyone was looking at me expectantly.

I looked at Phil directly in the eyes. “Phil, I am so lucky to have you in my life. It’s cliche to say, but you are literally the light of my life. Remember how I was when we first met back in 2009? I was just an awkward teenager that didn’t know what to do with their life. You were there though. You picked me up and guided me to where I am now 10 years later. I don’t know what I’ll do without you in my life. No one has accepted for being genderfluid as much as you do. Not even the viewers, when we told them. I lost a few thousand subscribers after that. That doesn’t matter though. The most important part was that you were there for me through it all. Through all my bad days and my existential crises, you were there. I love you so much Phil Lester. I promise to return the favor and be there for you for the rest of my life.”

There were tears in my eyes and it looked like Phil was on the verge of tears as well.

“Phillip Lester, please state your vows.”

Phil took a deep breath. “Dan, Dani, no matter what your name is for the day you will always be my person. I couldn’t care less that one day you are female and the next day you are male. What I care about is you. Being a different gender doesn’t mean you are a different person. You are much more than your gender. I love you for you, not because you are a man or a woman. The day we met remains the best day of my life. You are truly the best thing that happened to me. I was ecstatic when you agreed to marry me and here we are. I will always love you no matter what..”

“May I please have the rings?” Martyn handed the rings to the officiant.

The officiant gave me a nod as a signal to start. I took one of the gold rings and looked back to Phil. “Phil, I give you this ring as a promise that I will forever love you.” I put the ring on Phil’s finger.

Phil smiled at me and took the other gold ring. “Dan, I give you this ring as a promise that I will forever love you.” Phil slowly put the ring on my finger. I gasped at how cold the ring was.

The officiant held our hands together. “I pronounce you husbands. You may kiss.”

Our first kiss as a married couple. It was short and sweet, but it held more meaning than any other kiss we shared.

~~~

Me and Phil sat in a taxi on our way home. We had to change and grabs our bags before we went on our honeymoon in Japan.

Phil nudged my arm. “Hey Dan? Why did you insist on taking my last name? We could’ve of combined the names you know?”

“I wanted to have the pleasure of being called Mrs. Lester sometimes.” I grinned widely at him.

Phil put a hand over his heart. “Well the pleasure is mine, Mrs. Lester.”

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Dan and Phil have been dating shortly after they met over 6 years ago. They had plenty in common. They like a lot of the same bands, the same tv shows and the same foods; but as with any good relationship they have some differences. The biggest difference they have is that Dan is genderfluid. Phil normally doesn’t give this a second thought. Whenever Dan feels like a girl Phil just refers to her as his girlfriend. And whenever Dan felt like a boy Phil just calls him his boyfriend. He just goes with whatever Dan feels. Phil long ago accepted Dan and forgotten that some people could see it as an issue...until last week’s dinner with his parents.

Phil’s POV

“Hi mum.”

“Hello Philip. How are you?”

“I’m well, thanks. How about you?” I was stalling and my mum could tell.

“I’m alright. Phil, dear, are you sure you’re alright? You don’t sound well.”

“Yeah I’m just nervous I guess. Listen, mum, you know Dan, right?” My mum laughs.

“Yes of course. I’ve met him several times, remember? You guys okay?” Now I started laughing, too.

“Oh yeah we’re more than okay. So you see Dan’s not just my best friend, he’s also my boyfriend.” I pause, letting the news sink in.

“Your boyfriend?” she repeats.

“Yes.” To my surprise, my mum sounds incredibly happy.

“Oh that’s wonderful news, Philly! How long have you been together?”

“Since shortly after we met. The reason I called was so Dan and I could have dinner with you and dad. Maybe next week?”

“Oh, I don’t see why not. Does Dan know?”

“I haven’t told him yet, but I’m sure he won’t mind.”

“Alright I’ll let your dad know. See you next week. Bye Philip.”

“Bye mum.”

~~~

Today was the day Dani and I were going out to dinner with my parents. Dani was feeling like a girl today. We were in our room deciding what to wear. Dani always looked completely different as a girl than as a boy, you could hardly tell it was the same person.

After what seemed like hours we were both ready. Dani wore a simple black dress with some black boots. She also straightened her hair and added extensions. As for makeup, she just wore eyeliner and mascara. I wore black skinny jeans and a blue button-up top.

We got into the tube and sat in silence. I don’t mind not talking, but I noticed Dani was extra fidgety than usual.

“Dani love, what’s wrong?”

I hear her mumble something.

“What’s that Dani?”

“Oh um it’s just I never wore a dress in front of your parents before. I’m afraid of what they’ll say.” She looks down, hiding her face.

I lift up her chin and give her a quick kiss. “Don’t worry love, everything will be fine. I’ll be with you the whole time. You look beautiful. I love you.” I assure her.

Dani smiles. “Thank you. Love you too.” We went back to silence, lost in our own thoughts.

~~~

Dani and I walk into the restaurant hand in hand. My parents were already waiting for us of course as we were a tad late.

“Hey Philip!” My mum pulls me in for a hug. She sees Dani behind me, then looks back at me confused. “Phil, dear who’s this?”

I look back back equally confused as to why she’s confused. “Mum. Dad. This is my girlfriend, Dani.”

“Hi Mr. and Mrs. Lester.” Dani gives my parents a little wave.

My Dad finally speaks up. “Oh, hi Dani. Phil. Nice to see you.”

My mum looks over at all of us weirdly. She composes herself, “Hi Dani, nice to meet you.” She shakes Dani’s hand.

Dani looks over to me confusedly. “What does she mean nice to meet you?” She whispers only loud enough for me to hear.

I shrug. We all look pretty confused except for my dad. The dinner went pretty smoothly. Mum and Dad kept looking over at us and whispering to each other, but I thought nothing of it. They were right in front of us and Dani and I were pretty much doing the same. I was wrong to think nothing of it.

Dani excuses herself to go to the restroom and the second she’s out of earshot my parents confront me.

“Phillip, is there something you are not telling us?” Dad starts.

“No, is there something you and mum aren’t telling me?”

“Your mother informed me of something that I really hope is not true. Tell him what you told me, Linda.”

“Philly, dear I thought we were here to have dinner with Dan. Instead you bring this random girl.” Tears started to form in my mum’s eyes.

I start to get angry. “Mum, Dani is not some random girl! She’s my girlfriend! I thought both of you were okay with that!” Mum is full on crying now.

Dad takes over. “Phillip Michael Lester! I can’t believe you. I can tell you’re not lying, you are a horrible liar. I never would've thought that you would do this.” He shakes his head and starts comforting my mum.

“Do what?” I ask still angry.

Mum looks up with red eyes. “Do what, Philip? Cheat on Dan! That’s what!”

“Cheat on Dan? What are you o-” Sudden realisation dawns on me. Surprising myself and my parents, I start to laugh. “I’m not cheating on Dan. Oh this is a huge misunderstanding.”

“Care to explain then?” Dad says still angry at me.

I take a few seconds to gather my thoughts. “Okay so I’m not cheating on Dan. Uh she’s genderfluid.”

“Genderfluid? She?”

“Yes. Sometimes she feels like a boy and sometimes she feels like a girl. Today she feels like a girl. Hence the she and the dress and the hair. Also she likes to be referred to as Dani as a girl.”

My parents stare at me for a few moments. My mum speaks up first.

“Okay I think I understand. As long as you are happy, I’m okay with it.” Mum says with a smile.

“Yes what your mother said.”

“Thanks mum and dad. I probably should've thought about this before I said I was coming to bring my boyfriend.”

“That’s alright.”

After a few moments of awkward silence the conversation goes back to normal. We are all laughing hysterically when Dani returns from the restroom. We stop laughing immediately. Dani takes her seat next to me.

Dad clears his throat. “Dani, Linda and I would like to say we’re sorry.”

“Sorry for what?” She looks at me questionably. “What the hell happened?”

“While you were in the restroom, we confronted Phil. We thought he was cheating on you.” Dad continues.

A look of panic flashes across Dani’s face. “Phil is cheating on me?” I try to put a reassuring hand on her shoulder, but she slaps it away. “I knew someday you would stop ac-”

Dad cuts him off. “No our Philip is not cheating on you. We misunderstood. He informed us that you are genderfluid.”

Dani’s face softens. “Oh thank god.” She then puts a reassuring hand on my shoulder.

Thankfully the rest of the dinner actually did go smoothly. My parents didn’t ask too many questions about Dani’s genderfluidness. She happily answered the few reasonable questions that they had.

Back at home, Dani and I were sitting on the sofa watching tv.

“Phil thanks for being such a good boyfriend and accepting me for who I am.”

“Of course. Why wouldn’t I accept you? You are my favourite person regardless of your gender.”

With that she pulls me into a kiss. We fall asleep on the sofa in each other’s arms. I’m so happy and lucky to have Dani in my life. My beautiful girlfriend. My beautiful boyfriend. My beautiful Dani.

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A/N: Hello again! I have an idea for a part two/ sequel to this where they get married. Let me know if you are interested in it.