#gemjam

Author:  gemjam

Rating:  T

Status:  Completed in December 2020

Word Count:  11,504

Summary:  Kurt and Blaine prepare for Christmas, and the arrival of their first child.

Tropes/Genre:  married!Klaine, future!fic, fluff, romance, daddies!Klaine

Lynne’s review:  This is absolutely gorgeous. Made me cry. Loved it!

I just finished a big project and I have some time off coming up, so I’d love to gift some drabbles or ficlets for the Christmas season. They don’t have to be Christmas or holiday themed at all, just think of them as my gift to you, but if you want to go festive then go for it.

Will give most Teen Wolf pairings a try but my favourites are Steter, Stargent, Stetopher (just bascially throw Stiles at anyone and you’re golden :P) but I’m definitely willing to branch out, hit me with whatever.

AO3 - gemjam

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It doesn’t make any sense. Fernando stares down at the thin device he has figured is a phone (his hands somehow knowing how to function the thing even though his head seems foggy and confused by it) in disbelief. The first time was a coincidence, the second time maybe unlucky, but a third? No. That wasn’t right. The calls were being rejected, the ring time getting shorter. But why? Fernando can’t understand. Something must have happened. No. No. Fernando shakes his head a little. Why can’t he remember! The irritation floods through him and he hurtles the phone across the room. It smacks the wall and emits a cracking sound. Fernando doesn’t care. He hugs his knees and rocks slightly. Nothing is making sense. He can’t remember anything. He hates this no knowing. He feels disorientated. He feels sick again.

Mark opens the door softly and his eyes fall on Fernando’s phone lying face down on the floor. He frowns at it before crouching to pick it up and turns it over. The front screen is smashed. A crack running from top to bottom as one side is broken into a million pieces. Mark looks up to Fernando to ask what happened but finds he doesn’t have to. Placing the broken phone on the bedside table, Mark sits next to Fernando and wraps his arms around him.

And something hits Fernando again. A flash of an image before his eyes. The room is lighter, a room he doesn’t recognise. But Mark and he are sitting on a bed in this image. A much more comfortable one than the hospital one. And the thin black phone is discarded at the end of his bed. Mark’s arms are wrapped around him, his wedding ring shining in the sunlight. And Fernando feels heart-breakingly sad. And it’s overwhelming him. And he cannot deal with it. It’s all too much.

With a blink of an eye the sadness is gone, the vision of the strange bedroom has vanished. Mark’s arms feel foreign but comforting around him, but he still pushes out of the hold. The confusion seeps back in and he just can’t understand. He can’t understand the sudden vision that has pulled so far away he’s not even sure it was real and he can’t understand the rejection of his calls. It doesn’t make sense. Why would she not want to hear from him? Mark sinks back down in the plastic, white chair next to the bed and watches Fernando settle himself back down under the sheets. Fernando stares up at the ceiling. Mark notes his bag has been packed away and placed by the side of the bed, where Mark’s feet now rest. He leans forwards to Fernando, touching his arm gently. Fernando looks his way.

At this early stage in the fic it was important to show Fernando’s disorientation and try and get that through to the reader: to make them feel just as disorientated. It’s difficult to put yourself in the position of someone who has forgotten everything from the last ten years, so I approached it more on the way of “I will make the reader feel as confused and lost as Fernando is”. It was difficult for me personally to get there because I knew everything Fernando had forgotten. 

Fernando’s reaction - in throwing his phone across the room - is how I think I would react in that situation. He was trying to call his sister (which isn’t known implicitly at this point) someone who he has always been able to rely on and she’s rejecting him. No one is explaining and he’s completely confused. I think the natural reaction from anyone would be one of frustration, hence why Fernando throws his phone. 

One of the hardest things I found with this fic was the changing between Mark and Fernando. In the inspiration book, it’s told from one point of view. However, the way I approached it would have been very confusing to do just from Fernando’s point of view and Mark became the character who dropped the hints and clues about the memories Fernando had forgotten. It got harder as I got further through the fic, but at this point Mark is just trying to be supportive.

But when he sees Fernando so small and confused and hurt he can’t help but rush to his side. He’s been trying to be so careful, knowing the complexity of their situation and the fact that Fernando has forgotten ten years but he sees the man he loves unconditionally hurting and he cannot help but rush to comfort him. It’s an impulse, an instinct he’s engrained into himself over the three/four years they’ve been together. 

The flash of the memory here is to show the parallels of the situation. It’s happened before: his sister has rejected his calls and he’s been sad and hurt about it. It was Mark before who comforted him and it is Mark again. In that flash of memory Fernando feels content, like something fits, like he can relax into that feeling and that’ s Ok because it’s happened before. 

And then he’s back in the present where having feelings like that for Mark don’t make sense in his head. As much as he wants to hold onto the feeling he has to push away because confusion will engulf that too if he doesn’t. It’s reluctant but he knows he needs to start working things out before adding more confusion on top of what he already has. 

5) character you were most surprised to end up writing

I think one of the most surprising characters I’ve ever written is my Seb in the “Sivin” series I’ve written. For me personally, I’m not a big Sebastian fan so writing him as soft and compassionate as I hope I depicted him was new for me. I’m used to writing his as callous and arrogant and scheming but this was the total opposite to this. I have approached Sebastian in a more “human” way - if you will - before but this was just such a flip in opinion it kind of caught me out (not that it has changed my personal opinion on Seb). This Seb fit the story in a way I wasn’t expecting too so I think that was another reason he surprised me. He just kind of snuck up with this new dynamic and I found I could write it to suit fairly well.

17) if you could give your fledgling author self any advice, what would it be?

One thing I would tell myself and others who find themselves sort of stuck in writing it write what makes you happy. Even if you’ve promised people things or you’ve got seven WIPs you haven’t updated for months you HAVE to write what makes you happy. You have to write from where your head is at because you’re not going to get some squishy fluff written as well as it could be if you’ve had a shit day. Sometimes, when I feel pressure to write something, it makes me want to write less and then I end up stopping all together. So no matter who may be pressuring you you have to write what you feel like writing and what makes you happy, because otherwise your heart just won’t be in it. 

20) do you write in long sit-down sessions or in little spurts?

I much prefer to write in looooooong sit downs because then I feel like I can properly sink my teeth into a piece. Little spurts sometimes work but I always feel like I can’t get as into it as I want because I don’t have enough time. 

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Formula 1 RPF Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Mitch Evans/Alex Lynn, Mitch Evans/others Characters: Alex Lynn, Mitch Evans, Daniil Kvyat, Mark Webber, Carlos Sainz Jr, Richie Stanaway, Stoffel Vandoorne Additional Tags: Angst Summary: