#gdragonfluff

You’ve been a fan of GD for ages, but when you finally end up working with him, things aren’t as fun as you thought it would be. 

Part 1

You were fresh out of college, and although you were pretty well qualified as a journalist, you weren’t getting any jobs, because of the employment crisis in the economy. You desperately needed money, so finally, you decided to take up a job as a masseuse, something that was just a certification you had gotten on the side. You searched, and searched, and searched, and finally, you were able to get a job as part of G Dragon’s staff, because he gets frequent aches and pains. It was a temporary position, because you were filling in for an employee who was on maternity leave for around a year, but you were determined to make the best of it. It also helped that you were a huge fan of GD. He was your ultimate bias, and you absolutely loved his music. You had been a fan for years, and you were so excited that you would finally get to meet him, and see how he created music. More than anything else, you were inspired by him. You found every aspect of his life and is creative genius so impressive and inspiring. He was always the person you’d think of when you wanted to motivate yourself to work harder, and so, when you finally got the chance to see him and actually help him, you were stoked.

On the first day of work, you turned up early, determined to make and a good impression. You waited for a long time, and then slowly, people started to turn up for work. You went out of your way to greet every single one of them, and tell them that you would work hard and sincerely, and although they smiled, and replied politely, you felt like something was off. G-dragon was the last one to arrive, you were so nervous that you were stuttering and stammering while greeting him, and you expected a few people to laugh or smile at that, but when he replied in the exact same way as everyone else, you looked around and realised that the others didn’t hear you. It was then that it hit you. None of them cared. To them, you were just a temporary worker filling in for their friend. They just treated you with indifference. It hurt to be treated that way, but you forced yourself to stay positive and you thought that things would change. After all, they can’t possibly ignore you forever. And it was then that your nightmare job began.

Three months later, you were convinced your job was the definition of hell. They were still ignoring you. They hadn’t even bothered to learn your name. You absolutely hated it. You are someone who loves meeting people, interacting with them, helping them; basically, an extrovert.  When you first started the job, you were sure they would change and they would start paying attention to you after a while, but after you tried you level best for a month and they still treated you with indifference, you slowly started giving up. You could see they all the staff were practically one large family, and you were an outsider who had temporarily replaced one of their own. You told yourself that you only have to put up with this for a year. It’s not that big of a deal. But you know, it’s true what they say. Indifference is worse than hate. Without realising it, you slowly started changing. You knew they didn’t give a damn about you, and that started affecting you. You started to think that no one cared about you, and as a young adult who’d just moved to Seoul, with no friends or family around, it really bothered you. You slowly started to stop talking to people altogether. You stopped wanting to go out. You started thinking what the point of doing anything was when no one cared anyway. You just withdrew completely. Your only escape was writing. You absolutely loved writing, and had a writer’s blog on tumblr, where you wrote essays, short stories, and fanfiction.

 You were used to people not paying you any attention, and you also got used to the hectic schedule. According to your contract, you didn’t have a fixed schedule. You worked when GD worked. You went where GD went. So, if he decided to pull an all-nighter, so did you. It sucked, but luckily for you, the pay was good. One morning, you were woken up by a call from his manager at 5am telling you to be at the broadcasting station by 6. So, a sleepy, tired you turned up at the broadcasting station where GD would be recording a variety show for the day. Why were you the only one who wasn’t old? They had forgotten about you until GD texted them saying he had a headache.

So, there you were, running on barely enough sleep, massaging GD’s head, and dragging your feet around a broadcasting station from one room to another. It was lunchtime by then, and you were so tired, you didn’t even know you were hungry. GD was moving to another room and you were the only one with him as the others were all busy getting the room ready for the shoot. While you were walking through the corridors behind GD, you barely even noticed the noise and commotion surrounding one individual. Yoo Yeon-Seok had just entered the building.

Yoo Yeon-Seok was tired, and oddly flushed, but he forced himself to smile at the fans waiting for him at the entrance of the building. He patiently signed autographs for them and after a long time, he managed to leave the crowd behind and try and make his way to the assigned room. As he walked through the hallways and nodded to countless people, he knew something was wrong with him. He was feeling very tired, and his vision was blurry. He knew that he should be resting, but he absolutely had to make it for the shoot. It didn’t help that his manager had gone on leave and left him with a bumbling, clueless replacement. A bright orange head of hair jolted him out of his thoughts.

He made eye contact with GD and saw GD bowing to him in greeting. He was vaguely aware that they had met in the past, so he also bowed. He barely paid any attention to you, a hunched over, bleary-eyed individual behind GD. You in turn, just noticed that someone was walking towards you, but you didn’t bother looking up. You were also exhausted to the bone.