#gas6

And here’s the thing you need to know: in my first draft of Part 1, Gary Clark shot Bailey. Bailey. He shot her. And I wrote it and then I couldn’t sleep, for days and days, I could not sleep and I had to remove it from the script. Bailey getting shot was just too much for me. She’s our anchor. She’s the soul. Mer is the heart but Bailey is the soul and so I had to delete it. Because there was no way I could go on if Bailey had a bullet wound.

Go. It's okay. It's okay to choose.

The human life is made up of choices. Yes or no. In or out. Up or down. And then there are the choices that matter: love or hate, to be a hero or to be a coward, to fight or to give in, to live or die. Live or die. That's the important choice. And it's not always in our hands. Yes or no. In or out. Up or down. Fight or give in. I'll say it again to make sure you hear me. The human life is made up of choices. Live or die. That's the important choice. And it's not always in our hands.

I love the honesty and the humanity of seeing that your boyfriend is actually moving on, and you've kind of moved on too, and you kind of want for him to move on, but the reality of letting that love go is brutal for Lexie in this episode.

They take pictures of mountain climbers at the top of the mountain. They're smiling, ecstatic, triumphant. They don't take pictures along the way because who wants to remember the rest of it? We push ourselves because we have to, not because we like it. The relentless climb. The pain and anguish of taking it to the next level; nobody takes pictures of that. Nobody wants to remember. We just want to remember the view from the top; the breathtaking moment at the edge of the world. That's what keeps us climbing. And it's worth the pain. That's the crazy part. It's worth anything.

I think in the end she does the only thing you can do, which is to just say: 'we are going back to where we were and we're just starting over again.' And they both look at each other and go: 'I don't know if this can happen,' because reinvention never works backwards. You don't reinvent yourself into something you used to be. You have to move forward because everything moves forward.

I said that I love you and it's out there. And I know I can't un-ring the bell, but I'm un-ringing the bell. I take it back.

The theme that this episode started to become about as it was hatched was reinvention, and how when life is constantly changing you have to sort of constantly be reinventing yourself.