i've been looking into the mikoto discussions on here after my previous post, and i just quickly want to clarify:
if you're making the conversation about syscourse and not about the continued gross mishandling of systems in media and how it reinforces negative stereotypes about us systems then, system or not, i genuinely think you're a piece of shit who is hijacking the actual conversation for your own goals.
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i haven't really been big on discussing MILGRAM here, because im not a fan of making posts tearing a thing apart, and i haven't been a fan of trial three as a whole (besides Amane, who i do like their handling of).
but wow
requiem and the attached voice drama was almost IMPRESSIVELY bad, wasn't it?
im gonna preface this post with two pieces of information:
one, this account is run by a DID system. i can speak from my own knowledge and experiences, but i do NOT speak for systems as a whole. experiences do differ, and im not the spokesperson for all systems ever.
two, while we ARE a system, i am not a medical professional by any means. take any information i state regarding the medical side of this disorder with a grain of salt.
Mikoto's case has been one I've been... cautious about. I'm not going to say "having a violent alter is bad and stereotypical", because admittedly, WE fall into that stereotype. That being said, there's ways to handle situations like that- trial two made me optimistic in that John was very "humanized". He was portrayed sympathetically, less like the "insane, psychopathic alter" and more like someone doing his best to protect himself and Mikoto in a bad situation.
Trial 3 then proceeds to inform us that his victims were all innocent bystanders, including a 17 year old girl and a single mother, not the actual causes of Mikoto's stress.
Ignoring the inconsistencies between what the MV and audio drama describe vs the actual known logistics of the disorder, this makes ANY defense fall flat. A version of the case where the victims were people who had hurt or wronged Mikoto makes it a case that would be debatable even without the DID twist, with the usage of the disorder serving the role of obfuscating the crime's details rather than being what the entire question of its morality is based on.
This version is, yet again, a stereotypical "insane" alter who is a serial killer. He was "born" 48 hours ago, and immediately jumped to killing random people on the street.
That's another thing that's irked me about this case, something which is hard to put into words. The constant "babying" of John- constantly throwing around terms of him being a "newborn", of crying like one, literal babying of the guy. While the voice drama does its part in having Mikoto acknowledge it was still his body and thus he needs to take the accountability for what happened, the report and Es almost overly talk about John like he's... literally a child.
What an interesting way to talk about him?
...Positives! Positive things! The MV's framing is actually probably the only positive. I think the music video is framed and done extremely well as a DID depiction, it's such a shame it's attached to the song and the context of... this. This entire story.
I don't like that the entire story hinges on basically whether or not you'd be willing to accept DID as an explanation for an insanity plea. I don't like the babying of the system and it's members. I don't like the insistence Mikoto has not been deemed guilty by MILGRAM itself. I don't like that this is a stereotype played entirely straight with no room for the discussions that made Mikoto's case interesting to begin with.
I don't like that trial three contradicts previous information- John was certainly not protecting them by killing innocent people. I don't like that the story truly treats Mikoto as "cured", John existed for 48 hours plus the time in MILGRAM and is gone. I don't like that it doesn't seem to take the effort to portray any of what makes a dissociative disorder a DISSOCIATIVE disorder besides the existence of John.
I don't like that, for all intents and purposes, you could say Mikoto had some sort of breakdown and forgot after and the story remains exactly the same.
It feels like the DID angle was added purely for the shot of John punching the warden back in trial one. Otherwise... this is just a story that villainizes very real illness. There's ways to go about violent alters. They DO exist. This is unfortunately not an attempt to discuss that reality, and is just used for a "moral dilemma" that adds nothing to any conversation and has been done many times over.
The concept is still as disgustingly ableist as it was 10 years ago, by the way!
i did go into this knowing i'd almost definitely like it. surprise surprise, i really liked it! it's the first game up on a backlog of mrtk games i want to play (either for the first time, or play again), so i'll likely be posting sporadically about them.
i'm not sure whether i want to post my (analysis) thoughts about this game now, or wait for after i go through Rakudo yo Ori e (its sister game) to talk about it. from what i understand, the games are ultimately different takes on the same characters and setting- so i'm inclined to post about both on their own and discuss them together later.
as for personal, non-analysis related, opinions, i didn't expect to grow so attached to the duo. i knew i'd like Ren (...literally EVERYONE i knew joked that he's exactly my taste in characters), but Takumi grew on me extremely quickly. Rakudo wasn't initially on my backlog list, but ive added it specifically because i really want to see more of these two. i got attached to them THAT strongly over the course of the game.
i also didnt expect the fandom to have so much discourse in it, but that's probably what i get for looking at the english tags on twitter before checking anywhere else ^^'
in addition to work on the idol fuyuaka fic, i have....
two other zeno wips ive been chipping away at with a third (incredibly silly) one shot idea thats been brewing between me and bestie
a fragmem lost kitty arc part two general post since i have a lot of thoughts on it
an actual fragmem fic that i need to lock in on writing one of these days despite it being for a rarepair only ONE entire person will understand
a proper maeno aki analysis post (my entire personality is literally being maeno aki's number one fan and i'm not maeno aki posting on here??? what is WRONG with me why is the maeno aki fan not maeno aki posting)
an oc project i've also been chipping away at. slowly.
probably another zeno character analysis post that i want to write but don't know how to word. i have a lot of those actually.
...this is why i literally never get anything done istg
so the 10th anni badges id ordered (for now) finally came in. which means. another kuroaka ita bag!
im really so happy with it! the pins are decently high quality, better than id honestly expected compared to other badges ive bought (official merch or otherwise)
more thoughts and info abt the experience buying them + future merch buying plans under the cut, as well as some more photos!
if you're eyeing the 10th anni merch, it is made to order until next year. it took about 2 weeks from the order being placed (as it is on booth, you can use buyee through the merch site itself as a proxy) to being shipped, and another 5 days to be shipped from the manufacturer to the buyee warehouse to me. PLEASE do your research into expected shipping prices! making an ita bag was not a cheap endeavor even knowing exactly how many pins id need. the shipping for these guys was 80 dollars. do not underestimate shipping costs
i bought them basically as soon as they went up for sale.... aha........ im normal........
i plan on making another bag later this year with all 4, and i will be purchasing all 4 standees! im still very happy with this, and its my first zeno bag consisting of official merch!
i also will be attempting to purchase the artbook when it goes on sale next month! everyone i know knows ive been basically going insane for that thing from the moment mazu posted the cover art. im normal. im sane. im normal im sane im normal im-
anyways, more photos from my process putting the bag together!
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tenth anniversary pins ordered! i'll be ordering the standees on another day... ita bags are expensive, and i want to be at least a little prepared for this shipping cost.....
i really need people who write fangans to take a step back and seriously examine how they write their poc and disabled cast members because at a certain point yes i can say those decisions were rooted in a bias and the execution of those decisions doesn't change it
