#gainingweightiscool

*long post warning lol* getting ready to get a new 📱 so i was going through old photos... left photo i was ~15 and had been lifting about a year and a half. i was OBSESSED with working out but not in a healthy way. i chased being skinny and definitely got there. i restricted, cried every missed lift, refused to eat ANY food that wasn’t “clean” (eventually only ate like 3 different things), and you probably could’ve found me doing an ab workout at any given moment of the day. literally. sometimes i would get up in the middle of the night. i was afraid i’d “lose progress” the second i let myself rest. . . fast forward to the right. i took that photo a couple weeks ago and thought i looked “bad” so i disregarded it. a month away from 20 years old and i still struggle with some of the unhealthy thoughts i had 5 years ago. BUT for the most part, mentally and physically i’m so healthy. i don’t hate myself for little things, even if i’m still my hardest critic. i’m working towards amazing goals and working with an amazing prep coach. long story short, i’m so proud of myself. . . it may be strange to say i’m thankful for the girl on the left but i am. because of her i have so much discipline and motivation. i know how to push myself and i know what my TRUE goals really are. i’ve mentally and physically matured and my health comes first always. i may still skip out of some “college experiences” but that’s because i know where i want to be. i wasn’t satisfied then and i’m still not. only now i’m proud of what i’m building, along with where i’m at now, and every day is a blessing. ❤️ if you read this long wow you’re a champ and you must really like me 😂 thank you for following me in my life journey. the best is yet to come. also a huge thank you to every person (i’m going to tag a lot of the the ones who have accounts) that have motivated me to keep growing. i love you guys. 🙏🏼❤️ #gainingweightiscool #fitness #transformationtuesday #prepbywill #motivation https://www.instagram.com/p/BxK_tNKnS3P/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1bcgdadphjdwh

proud of where i came from and proud of where i am going

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ignore my mess of a room but I'm finally accepting my body for what it is

hopping on this whole #gainingweightiscool thing. because i spent years trying to be the smallest me i could possibly be and it made me nothing but miserable. i'm twenty pounds heavier but im so much happier. fell in love with lifting and found a lot of self love along the way.

You know what’s cool? Losing weight. You know what else is cool? Gaining weight. No longer being stuck obsessing over numbers. Strength. Self love. Confidence. Knowing that my body is constantly changing and that is ok! I’ve had so many ups and downs over the past two years and I’ve learned so much along the way. This is raw, unedited photographic evidence of my journey thus far. Tiger stripes and all. I have plenty of imperfections, but that’s what happens when you are a human being with a body. I am the happiest I have ever been and I can’t wait to see where I go from here! 😍💪💕✌️ . . . . . . . #selflove #bodypositive #weightloss #weightgain #losingweightiscool #gainingweightiscool #fitness #fitnessjourney #gains #strength #muscle #stretchmarks #cellulite #imperfect #human #progressnotperfection #normalizewomensbodies #allbodiesaregoodbodies #acceptance #confidence #foreverlearning #forevergrowing #knowledgeismydrug #learningismyfavorite #learningthroughexperience #guessimbacksharingwaytoomuchofmyself #armpitvaginagamestrong 😬#thesepantshavewithstoodthetestoftime #exceptforthegiantholeintheass #butshhh 😂

The picture on the left was after I lost 40lb by going vegan. Seeing this picture absolutely shocked me and made me feel uneasy. I realized that the body size I thought I wanted my whole life, was what I thought I should want. Honestly, I felt that I looked like a little girl and I was concerned that I was promoting an unhealthy body image by being at this size. During this time, Joe was trying to get me more interested in lifting since this was one of his passions, so I decided to see where lifting could take me. I've put on about 15 plant-based pounds since 🌱💪🏼 Lifting, although a traditionally male dominated sport, has made me feel the most confident, strong, and feminine I've ever felt. #gainingweightiscool