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Kicking off the Spring NovelRama challenge from #rmfw to write 25k words in 4 days! I've got my two novels on #scrivner open and I'm ready. I've made big life changes and goals and it's time to strive toward them. Thank you to @kate.m.bass for being a great friend and writing buddy! . . . . #writer #workingfromhome #amwriting #novelist #writing #productivity #accountability #futurenovelist #futureauthor #author #writersofinstagram #writersofig

Photo Challenge, I am Grateful For: {excitement} This is my first time ever participating in #nanowrimo and today I hit 10K. While I’m hoping it’ll eventually be good enough to publish, right now it’s all about the experience, and I am LOVING it! #nanowrimo2017 #iwrite #wordsmith #futurenovelist #booksrock #writersofinstagram #loveyourself #lovethislife #365grateful

So to take some of the pressure off, I’ve given myself until the end of May as opposed to the beginning. That way, I’ll be less pressured to write amongst deadlines of final exams and final papers. I can still do what I need to do and get my novel done before I start my internship. So let’s check back in soon and hopefully this new deadline will give my creativity more room to grow :)

This has definitely been an inspiration for me in my writing this week because I am trying to create tangible character development without stating, “Sage was a great friend.” I want my readers to connect with my characters. I want them to look at Sage or Tori or Sky and think “I wish I knew them. I wish we were friends.” It’s been challenging to create characters who are strong and independent but who also need others to get through life’s hurdles. And I think that’s because I’ve never had a good support system besides my family. So it’s hard for me to write what a good friend is because I’ve never had one. So instead, I draw from personal perspective--what kind of friend would I want to be in that situation? I think that in and of itself is really helping my chracter development. 

"And when nature runs its course, and rids the land of humans. There will be no one to save us. None to protect us from the wretchedness of our ways. The universe put us here to nurture us and guide us into a beautiful life. And what did we give in return? We tore our planet apart with war! Destroying the land with our wretched machinery. And I say unto you my brethren; we deserve everything this planet throws at us. It's time for nature to take itself back. "

I think I can write again! I think I can! OH MY GOD! I have had a major writers block for like the past two years!!!! I actually have an idea!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD SWEET BABY JESUS H. CHRIST AHHHHHHHH MOTHER EARTH THANK YOU. This excites me so much, because I love writing and I've missed it so much and helps with my stress levels so much. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. 

But why, why are you sometimes so distant? I don't mean to be that way it's just that- "Why are you with me? Sometimes I feel like its just me in this" and I told him do you remember the first thing you ever said to me? I recall the memory. First day of the Winter semester & I want it to be over already. I dread college. I'm not even at a University, I'm at a stinking community college. Well any way, I don't like school much. I always feel like I'm the odd one out. Like everybody gets it but me. It's the first day, and we already have to form groups. Oh, great. I try to be as social as I can, but I'm just not an outgoing talkative girl. 5 people are in my group, 3 guys, and 2 girls including me. Two of the guys are older, closer to my moms age. The other guy is, or seems closer to my age. He could be older or younger. I notice right away how attractive he is. I can barley breath. I quickly look away, but I steal quick glances his way, without him noticing. I've seen cute guys before, but he was not cute. I don't think handsome would do him justice either. He was beautiful, and his smile was as radiant as the sun. How can a man be this gorgeous? But as I realize how incredibly beautiful he is, I snap back into reality. He probably has a girlfriend I thought. I felt a little surge of sadness. He wouldn't want a girl or woman like me any way. I'm not a girly type of girl. I don't like to get my nails done, I don't like wearing heels, and I'm not beautiful or pretty. Some have called me cute, but what am I 2 years old? I'm 21, geeze! A little old for cute. I quickly shake my head as if to dismiss the thoughts from my head. ---Class is almost over thank goodness. I've spent half of the class day dreaming. It's time to go, and I steal another quick glance at his beauty. I thought it was a quick glance, but I was actually staring. Then he looked at me, and our eyes locked. He has the most beautiful eyes! They were greenish with a hint of brown. Unlike anything I've ever seen. I quickly grabbed my bag and papers, and tried to leave as fast as I could. "Crap he caught me staring, he must think I'm a weirdo". On my way out of the class I catch my foot on a piece of jagged up carpet. All of my papers fall to the floor, great. All of a sudden I see a pair of olive colored hands reaching down to pick up the papers. Thanks I mutter, and I look at him, up close in full HD. He's even more beautiful up close. Then I turn to leave & I hear a deep velvet voice speak. Excuse me he says. I turn around. "Your name is Riley right?" Yes I gasp, not realizing that I could barley breath. How could he have this effect on me? I don't even know the guy! Well my name is Jake, I don't know if you caught it, we're in the same group. "You seemed a bit-" Uhh yeah I was kind of in my own world. I laughed a shaky laugh. The first day is always kind of boring & unnecessary you know. Also I'm not that good at bio. I hate it. "Oh" was all he said. Great I'm boring him to death. "Well I'm really good at bio so if you needed any help we could have study sessions any time you need it". Thats perfect actually. Maybe we should exchange numbers? My heart almost jumped out my chest. Call or text me any time okay. Okay I said, you do the same. 6 weeks into the semester & yet another day spent with Jake. On the outside I'm trying to compose myself. But on the inside I'm giddy, smiling & hugging myself. You still don't even know if he has a girlfriend! My sub cons shouted. Whatever I was enjoying every chance I could get. & as I'm in deep in thought, I look up & he is staring at me in deep thought. What? I ask. "Can I ask you something?" Okay. "How can someone so beautiful always look so mad or sometimes sad?" Umm? Do I look sad now? Well I notice that you do sort of get a sadness on your face when your in deep thought. I want to know why. "I've just had a lot on my mind lately." I know we're study buds and all but I've noticed that I don't really know anything about you. We spend all this time together & at the end of it I'm still like who are you?