Just found out that I've been promoted from Alternate to Selected for the Fulbright Germany English Teaching Assistantship. After freaking out for a quick second, I did a lot of thinking (and consulting of other people) and decided that it's best for me to just stick with my Fulbright Austria for numerous reasons, only a few of which are that I've already contacted my schools, purchased a plane ticket, and dealt with bureaucracy.

I found out this morning that I didn't get it. I was designated as an Alternate, which is better than getting rejected, I guess...however the chances that I will actually get awarded the grant are VERY slim, and completely dependent on a) where I am on the list, and b) how many people accept/decline their grants.

I WILL FIND A WAY TO GET TO GERMANY NEXT YEAR.

29 days, 61 days, and 84 days, to be exact. Is this real life?

I religiously stalk the Fubright 2012-2013 forum on The GradCafe, you should check it out. Helps the angst. Based on when the letters went out the last couple of years, we could hear next week or it could be the beginning of April...or anywhere in between. I do know that we'll hear initially via email and then get a paper letter.