#fuckingylvis

1. if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?'Im gonna be super lame on this one, but if someone really wanted to understand me they should probably listen to me? like the best way to get to know me and understand me is to spend time with me and listen to me rambling and yeah, of course there are songs i love and i feel like describe me and my feelings alot and books which have influenced me and movies and tv-series i watched alot and i probably wouldnt be the same person without having listened/watched/read all of this but honestly? Every person interprets things like that differently and if people who would want to understand me they would alot faster and easier if they'd let me ramble about my favourite books and movies and songs to them.

7. do you care about your ethnicity?this is really hard, like maybe? like i dont really think i fit into expections people (and maybe also myself) have about germans or turks so it was always a bit weird for me, because i cant just deny my heritage but also i like i dont really care all that much for it? i wouldnt consider myself turkish but id probably also wouldnt consider myself german and whenever i really think about it i feel kinda sad, because i should consider myself something right? So i just try to not think to much about it

11. describe your ideal day.So, okay, obviously id like to sleep in late but you dont really have that much of your day if you sleep till like 3 pm (what i usually do) and also i like to be up early if i have gotten enough sleep, so id probably say id like to get up early (like maybe around 8 am) and go outside and go eat breakfast in a bakery with great coffee and sweets. then, since i live in a great city id probably go downtown to like go shopping for a bit or just wander along the shops and maybe go inside my favourite bookstore or the library to read a bit or maybe work on uni stuff and stuff like that (i still have to do stuff, right?) and maybe id sit down by the river for a bit because its really great there and usually if its warm and sunny there are alot of people there and maybe i have like more selfconfidence in this ideal scenario and then id sit a bit with them and just talk and have fun you know? then id probably head back home at like (after-)noon, relax for a bit, drink tea, watch tv, go on tumblr and twitter, maybe phone a bit with friends, go shower, cook and eat and in the evening id probably like to go out with friends but not like at a club or a pub (even though that can be nice too, im sure), but just to someones home with a few drinks so we can talk and drink and play games or watch movies maybe and yeah thats really my favourite way to spend my evenings. Im lame like that.

16. if you’d grown up in a different environment, do you think you’d have turned out the same?No. thats a super clear no and i spend alot of time wondering how i would have turned out if id been born into another family (maybe a more intact one with less siblings and less poverty), another country (maybe one where i wouldnt be a foreigner even if i speak german better than alot of my german classmates), if i went to another school (maybe one that didnt was as fucked up as mine but also maybe one where the teachers didnt care as much about me) or didnt get internet access at like 10 (i would definitely be more innocent now).

21. do you love easily?yeah. yeah i do, i fall in love super easily, with people, with ideas, with art or books and then i get super obsessed with them, but usually it fades really quick and then im either in a state where i still really like the thing or the person and i care a lot for them (just not in this lovey-dovey-super-obsessed way) or i dont really care for it at all. i really wish it wasnt that way, that id take my time getting to know things better before i get super obsessed with them in like 0.2 seconds and also loving them for a long long time but yeah. that just isnt me (yet, maybe i will mature idk)