#fuckingguys

I left my ex's house last night after watching game of thrones and just smoking and talking as always. I get a text on the way home that says "I still have so much love for you. It doesn't feel right when you leave...I love you Johannah" OMG my heart. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Worst timing in the world. I just apparently broke an old mans heart and then my guy friend that likes me is coming into town next week and staying with me. I just don't even know what to do with myself. Fuck. I love him so much but I don't know if I'm ready for this again. Dammit.