#fuckeverybodyelse

I have noticed when I drink alone I like life more

I may have a problem

I'll probably delete this when I realize I posted it.

I mean seriously. I'm so tired. Tired of having feelings. If I were an actual cold heartless bitch life would be easy as fuck. But, I get stuck having feelings n shit, and get caught up in some shit I don’t even wanna be apart of. It’s not easy having a kindred heart for people. Too often I care more about others before I care about myself. Which is probably my biggest downfall.

When I began dating again, I told myself to “love yourself first”. I listened. For a minute. Fell in love, then completely invested that self love into someone else. Don’t get me wrong, I love him. So much. But, when it comes to where we are now, a relationship in limbo, I wish I would have love myself more. Loving yourself is liberating. Nothing feels better than knowing that you have enough love for yourself before you invest so much love into someone else.

So in summary, as mother Ru said, “If you can’t love yourself, how in the hell can you love somebody else?” Love yourself by all means and in every humanly way possible. And if anybody calls you selfish, heartless, or self-centered. Fuck ‘em. You deserve to fall in love with yourself before anybody else deserves a millisecond of your time.