(for all muses) ā: What drew you to this muse? // šŗ - How much do you draw on personal experiences when roleplaying? // š¼ - Do you think you could ever stop roleplaying now? // affection and treasure // Halloween costume I want to dress as but havenāt yet?
ā: What drew you to this muse?Ā
Lia: I identify strongly with Lia in a lot of ways--but she also what I hope be and achieve. I get the struggle to meet your parents expectations (herās, obviously, are quite different than mine--and in some ways, not so much). I know what its like to feel locked in and trapped into certain expectations or futures because of whatever reason. What it feels like to do so much work and never feel like it counts. But also to love people deeply, to care about the world in a way that doesnāt depend on it caring about you (which I know sounds weird but Lia will love people even when they havenāt loved her back--and sometimes I think thatās really brave). I wanted to play around with those things a little more and Lia gave me that opportunity. Plus, Lia is the only muse Iāve had that goes to therapy, so itās also weirdly cathartic in a way, walking her through what my therapist told me when I went to see her. Itās freaky but cool.Ā
Nic: Oof, Nic is unlike any muse Iāve ever played before, and that alone was a draw. I write muses like Lia--the sweet, kind, cinnamon rolls. I am not good at playing rough around the edges characters....but then Nic came around and I surprised myself with how much I loved playing with her. Nic embodies a lot of things I also wish I was--outwardly brave, do no harm but take no shit, blunt and confident. But she also bears the weight of pain that Iāve never had to bear--and in so many ways I donāt understand her. I think thatās a fun part about playing her, sheās so different and yet I also getĀ her too and itās confusing to explain but I sheās like my enigma. She throws stereotypes on their heads and I love that about her.
Ana: Ana cracks me up because she is soĀ unlike Lia and Nic. She has not dramatic trauma, she doesnāt have a bad home life or frustrations with her parents. She just...is. Sheās vapid and spoiled, but not mean--just clueless. Sheās fun to play because she isnāt serious and she just...babbles whenever she talks. I am still trying to get a feel for her. But I think Iām drawn to her because she is so frivolous and thatās so not me and itās fun to explore that in a low risk environment.Ā
šŗ - How much do you draw on personal experiences when roleplaying?Ā
Probably too much? I mean, Lia literally goes through the same therapy exercises I did, Nic is obsessed with Marvel like I am and Ana loves social media just like me. They are all extensions of me in some way--just not all the same extension of me. Thatās probably not a way to write muses but if I canāt connect with them, I canāt hear them, yāknow?
š¼ - Do you think you could ever stop roleplaying now?Ā
No, not ever. Well, maybe one day--but writing has always been my thing. Iām not artistic, I donāt make things with my hands. I canāt draw, I donāt know how to make music (other than four notes on a uke), I canāt sing, Iām bad at math--writing has been the only consistent thing Iām good at. And I like it. I like creating worlds and muses and things out of thin air. The satisfaction that comes when a plot line or headcanon or para fall together juuuuuuustĀ right. Never knowing what your thread partner is going to create for you to reply to. Especially now that I have a real job and no school, I donāt know if I ever will stop rolepaying--at least not in the near future. Itās the only thing thatās kept me sane in quarantine and without all of you--oof, I donāt even want to know.Ā
affection: how do you show affection toward others?Ā
Words, usually. I tell them how great they are, how proud I am of them, how important they are to me. I help, I (when itās appropriate and I have gotten consent ofc) give hugs. Iāll spend time with you, laugh with you, anticipate your needs....whatever you need to feel valued, Iāll do.Ā
treasure: what do you prize above all things?
Love? Is that too cheesy? I guess people is probably a better answer. People matter to me and they will always be a top priority. I live my life in a way that helps people, that puts people first--my job is centered around people, my values are influenced by people and their habits. Itās why I get so angryĀ when people do things that donāt support others. Why do we need to live in a world that is so cruel to people--weāre all doing our best. Weāre all trying to exist on the same small, fragile blue planet--and yet some of us (a lot of us) choose to make things harder for others. It baffles me, truly.Ā
Halloween costume I want to dress as but havenāt yet?
Oh wow--I donāt know. Iām not a halloween kinda gal. I mean, I think I would like doing couples costumes though. That could be fun! Donāt have a couple to go with, but thatās ok. Or a princess. But we been knew that.
