“that’s true,” she muttered quietly in agreement. lies were a fact of life. hell, their whole group lied on a daily basis just to survive; they lied to keep themselves alive. this wasn’t brand new information that soojin was receiving. “there are all kinds of lies and all kinds of reasons people tell them. some are good lies, some are bad lies -- most if not all lies are selfish.” soojin couldn’t really make eye contact with yeonghwan. there was just something about them that always had her on edge. they intimidated her but not in the sense that she was afraid of them. they intimidated her in the sense that she wanted desperately to be accepted by them; to be looked upon favorably by them. “but i wouldn’t lie to you ... not about this.” she NOTICED things, things that many people would prefer she didn’t. she noticed them. “you deserve more than you think you do. i know it probably doesn’t mean anything to you coming from me, but you do.” their entire loop was a bunch of messed up, broken kids on the run for the lives. there were no second chances and no time for mistakes. one wrong move could mean the end of them all. it was a heavy burden for anyone to bear and combined with all the things they’d bared witness to, it was a miracle any of them got up in the morning. soojin sat across from yeonghwan, wringing her hands and doing her best to come up with the right words. she didn’t know how to say what she wanted to say. she didn’t know how to offer comfort to them. she didn’t know how to offer understanding without coming off as if she were lecturing them. soojin didn’t know a lot of things so all she could do was sit there, like a fool. “you deserve forgiveness -- especially from yourself.”
