#ft. matthew

the scent of hazel nut and vanilla fills the living room. one of adrian’s very overpriced candles flicker on the coffee table as he fluffs one of the couch cushions. adrian spent the better part of his saturday morning tidying up their apartment. someone had to do it -- and he didn’t work well in too much clutter. perhaps it was just another means of distracting himself from the workload waiting for him in his room. one thing about adrian, he loved a little procrastination. he’d soon have to return to work now that the living room was cleaned to perfection. well, at least... it was clean. “hey -- !  put your shit in your room. i just cleaned up in here.” adrian scolded, though he hated how he sounded like someone’s dad. with a huff, he tries again. a little less... grandpa. “could you not right now.” 

jory went up to the counter pouring himself another drink. he sipped the alcohol from the red solo cup, before spinning back out into the crowd. literally. he danced his way through life, every step he took seemed to be apart of some greater dance. and he was certainly one of the few people who could look graceful walking or dancing when he was drunk. he continued his graceful spinning across the room only to bump into someone. “ooof, sorry about that,” he beams up at the other a hand placed on the other chest from when he caught himself, too graceful to send them both tumbling down.

“ really? ” a smile drew itself in his lips, far too amused by the incongruity of matthew using such a line, “ you can't be serious! ” he tried to stay composed, but the smile soon turned into full blown laughter. “ i can't believe you dared to say that out loud. ” he calmed down after a moment, wondering what this was all about, “ is it a strange code i'm supposed to get? ” eyebrows lifted as he tried to make sense of the situation, “ or, did you lose a bet or something? ”

an indignant splutter, brows furrowed in displeasure. “ don't you dare put this clusterfuck on me. ” the clusterfuck in question : the bodies laying at their feet. a pointed gesture towards the closest ones. “ those are yours. don't deny it. ” no doubt remained. each of the hunters had made it quite clear who they were after. “ demon hunters and witch hunters working together. how quaint! ” it stung a bit. a mediocre team up. was it all he was deserving of? it hadn't been a fight by any stretch of the imagination. the hunters had been so terribly unprepared. so cocky for men who had been slaughtered and would now rot here, never to be found.

☀️ Before I met you I thought you'd be one of those stuck up their own ass actors, but you're a really chill and laidback dude. I see why Nell and Jude are friends with you.

“The day I woke up and Matthew was gone, the first thing I felt was relief. Like ... it doesn’t have to be me this time. I don’t have to be the one to go. It was nothing against Matthew. I loved him. Part of me always will. But I wasn’t ready. I was scared. I was terrified. He left and it took all the pressure off of me to be normal and have this good and normal and healthy relationship where we take normal steps and do healthy things and ... I just ... I wasn’t ready. So I was relieved. And then I hated myself for thinking that, and feeling that, and for being glad. So I took it out on him. I got mad at him, like I thought I was supposed to.” 

“I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to tell him that. I don’t know if he’d ever understand it, or forgive me for the way I treated him. I don’t know. Maybe it’s best to just let sleeping dogs lie.” @matthew-adams

6. You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?

 @mikayla-tilly, without a doubt.

14. Is there someone who continuously lets you down?

Most people continuously let me down.

23. Were you happier four months ago than you are now?

Not at all. Four months ago my life was in an ugly kind of spot I never thought I’d get out of. I mean, life’s not so easy now, but at least I have a thing or two to be happy about. Something to work towards. It’s better. I’m happier. 

37. Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?

Absolutely! A lot of my friends are guys. 

40. Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

Yes. More than one someone. I’ve probably kissed a lot of people I shouldn’t have. 

58. Where have you lived most of your life?

In a state of existential panic. 

60. Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?

Is it not a rite of passage?

72. What do you most like about making out?

Already answered. 

83. Do you miss your last sweetie?

Yes and no. I miss a lot about @matthew-adams. He and I were good friends, both while we were together and before that. We could talk about movies for hours. We could talk about anything for hours. I’ll probably miss that forever ... but that doesn’t mean I want to get back together with him. I think we’re both better suited with other people. 

94. Name four things that you wish you had!

Already answered. 

106. Do you flirt a lot?

More than I should, but it’s more who I flirt with than how frequently that usually ends up getting me in trouble.