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So I just watched the last Doctor Who episode and I haven't browsed for gifs and reactions on tumblr yet because I wanted to write down my own opinion, by myself, you know. So here we go. I have to say I was beginning to grow tired of that same old routine Moffat gave us. And for the first time in a long time, I even considered stopping watching the show, because I couldn't find anything worth watching anymore. Remember the whole feelings thing Davies used to do ? Well I miss it. Like million of viewers. 

Tonight, as I turned on my computer, I thought 'okay. You know what - let's do this, let's watch one episode, one, just one. If it's not good I'm done with Doctor Who' and let me tell you that I had never been more afraid to watch an episode of a show I like. I desperately wanted it to be good enough, but at the same time I couldn't help myself remembering all those little mistakes and huge fails in the first episodes of season 8. Isn't that weird ? I don't know, I just suppose that at some point when you want something to be perfect you can't help yourself seeing the little things (and God I wish it was little but it's not and everyone knows it).  BUT.  I was surprised. I was shocked. I smiled. I laughed. I even squeed at some part (and god knows I haven't squeed for Doctor Who in a long, long time), I held my breath as I wasn't sure what was going to happen. And this is it. This is what I wanted to say.  I felt something. You know why ? Because the Doctor finally saw himself, he saw himself as he wants humans to see him and he didn't like it. He was disappointed that Clara could get his part that well because it was heartbreaking for him. I mean, have you seen himself listen to that guy, that guy at the end of the episode who was all like 'okay no big deal we've lost people but there were not important to anyone' ? The Doctor's look there got me. Right in the feels. And it made myself remember about the times when he was travelling with Donna. When Donna couldn't even consider the fact that a temp from Chiswick was the most important woman in the universe, and the Doctor achieved to make her proud of her.  I also remembered that the Earth is defended. That the Doctor cares about humain beings. After he desperately tried to establish contact, as he reached the point of no return, he had to kill that species because it was hurting human beings and he couldn't bear it. I never want to forget that.