(From what I've found out, the phrase "losing my religion" is an old Southern US phrase meaning to lose one's temper or sanity, like when pining over an unrequited romance, etc.)

I couldn't believe when you told me we were finished. I couldn't believe when you told me it was all a lie. I saw you with Sebastian. It was where you told me you wanted to be, but I never thought it was true. At first, I thought it was a joke, some twisted prank to see how I would react. However, I quickly found out that I was only deceiving myself. Why? Why did you leave me? Was my everything not enough to satisfy you? I didn't understand. I was heartbroken and furious. I gave my entirety to you. I showed you parts of me that no one else saw, told you secrets that would've never been spoken...and it seemed as if that wasn't enough. I had always scoffed at the self-harmers, believing that they only resorted to such actions because they were too weak to control their emotions, but when I got home that day after school and realized my house would always be empty...for the first time in my life, I contemplated locking myself in my room and letting myself bleed dry. You managed to bring me to my knees, the only one to. You tore out my heart and left a hole in its place.

HELLLO~! OwO 

swimminganigay

//AU Sebastian. That was so difficult to write. I don’t know why.

((Welcome dear))

//I did our rp, because I am incapable of writing only a single sentence.