not to switch blogs mid sending these but for moritz, examine melchior
melchior is your best friend â well, you think that he is. sometimes you worry, but sometimes you worry about everything. heâs much more confident than you are, always questioning lessons, arguing with authority figures. he does all the things you only dream of doing -- those things you keep inside your head, echoing over and over.
you worry for him a lot ; heâd probably laugh if you told him that, because he is confident, and he is unafraid. mostly, though, you just wish you could be him -- that is, you wish you could have his bravery, even just the smallest smidge of it. you wish you could go along with his ideas, be more encouraging than you are. but you have a lot to lose, and your mind works against you, so maybe youâll just be quiet again.
sometimes you worry youâll lose him in the process.