(still) worthy.

the world is beautiful.

this is the conclusion he has come to. he was raised being told that the world is an awful, terrible place, filled with sin and degeneracy ; he wants to be pure, clean, perfect, doesn’t he? then he must avoid the world. but he has seen the world, has stepped on the line between here and there – between clean and dead, because really, those are your options, or maybe between earthly and dead  –  he doesn’t know what kind of relief the end is supposed to bring, but he knows that here and there are both beautiful.

starters from character playlists i have. feel free to change prounouns/details etc!

i smoke when i drink.

must be nice not to think twice about everything always.

keep me in the know.

when i looked at her i thought of only you.

we’ll make this work second time around.

you’ve got a lot to say for the one who walked away.

i give, you take, that’s the way it’s always been.

you’ve got a lot to say for the one who pushed me away.

please teach me how to turn such simple things into light and beauty.

i try and transcend my ego, but don’t we know that will never work.

my mind is playing awful tricks.

why has constructing sentences become like pulling teeth?

i’ve never felt comfortable with the concept of things ending.

i’m trying to recognise myself when i feel i’ve been replaced.

i am not a slave.

i still feel alive.

i’ll wake up soon.

have i misplaced a part of my soul?

i’d find a way to make you stay.

i just want to make this last.

go ahead, rip my heart out.

i want you to want me this way.

i need you to need me to stay.

if you don’t know, let me go.

let’s forget the past.

i don’t mind if you take what you need from me.

why are you so hard to find?

we’ve been here so many times before.

i can do do anything that i want.

i can design an engine, sixty-four miles to a gallon of gasoline.

me and my friends understand the future.

i can split the atom of a molecule.

my reach is global.

my cause is noble.

it feels so good to be alive and on top.

for all i know the best is over and the worst is yet to come.

i hate to say i told you so.

they love to say they told me so.

at least i try to keep my cool when i’m thrown into a fire.

you hurt me bad this time.

i don’t pick up when you call.

you want forgiveness, but i just can’t do it yet.

i can barely hang onto myself.

you want forgivness, but i just can’t give you that.

i just can’t do it yet.

i’ve waited way too long.

i love you more than you’ll ever wrap your head around.

i’m everything that i am because of you.

all the following sentences are taken from the column by topaz winters. you can read all of topaz’s works and buy her books here. feel free to change pronouns, etc as desired !

“ i am not a person who gets angry often. ”

“ no matter which way you looked at him, he always lit up the dark. ”

“ if love is a transformative force, does it matter if destruction comes with the deal? ”

“ i couldn’t help but believe in it while it lasted. ”

“ i lost the love, but not the playlist. ”

“ did I do that right? i’ve never kissed anyone before. ”

“ how easy it is to be deafened by love. ”

“ perhaps we both knew it was going too quickly. ”

“ listen to this, it reminds me of you. ”

“ i knew it was coming before it happened. ”

“ i think we should just be friends. ”

“ sometimes the echoes are so much louder than the memory itself. ”

“ i don’t know how to have the conversation we need to have. ”

“ i understand if you’re still angry with me, and if you wish this had never happened between us. ”

“ we don’t have to do this. and i could back away now. and it could be so easy. ”

“ i resented it until i did not have it, and then i ached for it. ”

“ it’s difficult to fathom all of the methods of falling for a person. ”

“ the dark is only dark if light exists somewhere else. ”

“ they say the silence is part of the music. ”

“ we all settle for something, don’t we? ”

“ in my defense, there were so many gardens in her laugh. ”

“ no matter what happens i’ll be with you in the end. ”

“ i wasn’t looking for a person to call my own. ”

“  today I imagined what it would be like to wake up next to you, and i’m going to let that thought sustain me for the day. ”

“ how long will this go on before we admit we’re in love with each other? ”

“ it wasn’t love at first sight, it wasn’t all okay the moment i saw her face, but in my defense, it was something close. ”

“ love turns us into drunken golden fools. ”

“ i know this. do you think i don’t know this? ”

“ i kissed her and meant it, maybe more than i’d ever meant anything else. ”

“ one of you leaves first, and you both know who it’s going to be. ”

“ is aloneness not its own kind of intimacy? ”

“ do you ever think what might’ve happened if we hadn’t met when we did? ”

“ there’s so much there to want, so much that sometimes it’s easier not to respond. ”

“ sometimes the silence is a truth in itself. ”

“ i tell her i love her, and it is the first truth my mouth has ever tasted. ”

“ i want to spool the words back into my throat as soon as i’ve said them, and this is how i know it is real. ”

“ i’m the one who loves louder, who needs more. “ 

“ i fell hopelessly in love with you and haven’t slept for the past month. ”

“ it wasn’t fair, what you did. it wasn’t fair, how i felt. ”

“ maybe we could start over. ”

“ you had a good thing and now look what you’ve done to it. look what you’ve turned it into. ”

“ i’m quieter than most but never as quiet as i should be. ”

“ the universe and the human body are mostly made up of empty space. ”

“ this is something you learn early on if you wish to stay alive, so naturally, it’s something i was never particularly interested in learning. ”

“ can’t it end there? do we have to include the next part? ”

“ love is the only way i know how to turn waiting into something noble. ”

“ i want every day to be easy as the start. ”

“ i would’ve loved to hate her, but mostly i just missed her. ”

“ maybe it shouldn’t matter, but it does. it does. ”

“ there are places on the earth the sun never touches, but the deepest, tenderest part of me wants to believe they find other sources of light. ”

“  you know I still think about that summer. ”

            “ Would I be more noticed than I ever was before? Would the things I’ve said                and done matter any more? God, thy will is hard, but you hold every card. ”