Heās almost certain heās a dozen bundles of nerves right now, and heās not even sure if thatās possible but, well, thereās no other way to really describe it. Heās actually a little proud of himself, really, for how well heās managed to keep his nerves in check up until this point-
Of course now theyāre actually here, right in the middle of all the excitement and chatter of the other schools, the people there to watch them (actually here to watch them, theyāre here with all these schools-) and heās absolutely terrified. He doesnāt doubt the team, he would never, theyāve soared above every expectation to get here and theyāre still pushing, still trying.
Itās him heās worried about, heās practiced like crazy but he also knows heās still nowhere near the level of every other ace here, he doesnāt have any flashy moves, any recognition outside of being on the team that everyoneās surprised is here.
(Heās not going to lie to himself, heās petrified of something happening, of being shut out again, of tumbling back into that mindset again and letting everyone down-
-heās fighting it, though, heās fighting it because this is his chance to prove that he is strong enough, to show everyone)
He doesnāt realize everyoneās stopped until he feels a slight tug on his sleeve, until he turns and thereās Daichiās gaze leveled at him (and heās nervous too, he has to be, but itās only careful observation that lends it visibility right now). He settles on a hint of a smile, a quick reassurance that yes, heās nervous, but heās okay.
They have only a moment, he realizes as he listenās to the coach talk, as he gaze flickers to the door theyāll be walking through in a few minutes, and it isnāt much. Theyāre given a brief period to prepare, to ready themselves to walk out for their first match, and all of the sudden itās too short, thereās not enough time and this could be his last chance to be on this court, with them-
Itās his turn to tug on the otherās sleeve urgently, ignoring the concerned furrow to the otherās brow and simply pulling him off to the side, waving Suga off with a quick apology, promising to be back in just a moment, and no, heās just fine. Heās quiet as he glances around, trying to find some corner where no one else is crowded, (just for a second, he only needs a second).
He canāt explain it, explain why he needs this, why heād risk it when he almost panicked the last time they held hands with anyone around, but all he knows is the press of Daichiās lips against his own is everything to him, itās enough to soften every frayed edge, to make everything fall back into place.
(They can do this, theyāve worked so hard just for even a chance at this moment, theyāre here)
Heās smiling when he pulls away, hands lingering on the otherās shoulders for another heartbeat before he pulls away, a full smile lighting his lips this time.
āLetās get out there and win this thing.ā