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â Being held down, unable to breatheâ thrashing as hard as he could, but to no avail his struggles proved to be futile.
   { Groans and turns over.}
Adam tries opening his eyes, but they feel heavy⌠As if weighed down by lead. Finallyâ he managing to throw his hand, in slow motion towards his faceâ breaking the barrier that kept him from seeing. Mon Dieu.
   Hans? Staring up. Finding that the person responsible for holding him down, has been his lover .  Clasping their hand a little too hard for comfortâ Immediately releasing his grip on the other prince, Adam smiles up at Hans who still has him pinned. The room feeling somewhat more airy, and bright than usual. Tilting his head curiously, what was the other up to? â Is thereâŚ. Something you want?â Running his foot against the back of the otherâs calf, he takes in the feeling of having their body so tightly pressed against his. A little more dominating then usual, but Adam wouldnât mind  this slight change. Kinda liking it, he took in a breathâallowing the scent of the other to captivate and hold him. Making it obvious where Hans should take this activityâ
   { â Jâtaimeâuhhâ Tossing back, the words dropping with a heavy breath. }
   Remaining there, looking over Adam. Hansâ expression much little less happy. It isnât the loving glance that Adam tends to find in those emerald huesâ something is very off. The other looks almost angry, but not quite. There is something that sends chills through the french prince, something more ⌠dangerous. Not so much a thrill that arouses, rather making Adam worry. â What is it? Hans, whatâs-â
   â Shut upâ A harsh interjection that suddenly puts Adam in a state of concern. Shut up? What have I done to deserve such resentment? But Hans wouldnât let go, wouldnât let him speakâ The grip just hardening around his wrists. Making the french prince wince.
     â Ah!!â That hurts, If this is some weird fantasy youâre wanting to play⌠Iâm sorry I donât think I really preferââ
   â You killed my familyââ Eyes widen, looking up at the other. Confusedâ terrified of what Hans could mean, though somehow Adam thinks about what the other is saying and suddenly begins to  have these memories. How⌠Could⌠I? The images of himselfâ hunting down an entire royal family. Slashing them. The red bloodâ
    { â I didnâtâ NNo⌠Stopâ Kicks into the sheet.}
     Licking his lips, then looking back up at Hans who now had this sadistic smile on his face. Adam realizes that yes. He did kill Hansâ family. Not knowing how or understanding whyâ- Oh⌠Beast? â Howâ how do you know?â
    â I always knew.â
        â â You⌠Have?â
    â Of course. Why do you think Iâve been waiting for a moment like this? Iâm going to make you payâŚâ. Hans leans in close to Adamâs face, itâs a strange feeling. In the past Hans only comes this close to retrieve a loving kiss or some other tender reason. While this is reason for their close proximity is purely out of anger and revenge. Iâm sorry Hans, I didnât mean toâReally. â Please⌠Listenâ You can hate meâ.â â Oh I already do. That is why I am here to end youââ
    { Breathing quickens and slows in uneven patterns}
   â Hans! Please just hear meâŚâ.  Looking up at the other with a desperation in his eyes, Which does absolutely nothing to stop the other. In their hand is Adamâs own ornamental dagger. Pointing down. Threatening him. This canât be Hans. The last couple years, learning about him, taking him inâ not giving a damn about his past, and practically nursing him back to health after his whole family condemned him. Pouring his heart and soul into this man, and now this? Why? Why such hatred? Because Adam killed his family? The family that in turn hated him? Supposing it isnât still fair, but this⌠hisâ â Please⌠Just listenââ.
   ââ Iâve had enough of your excuses! Your stupid, pathetic excuses! Why canât you act like everyone and just be normal? You know how perverted you are? To bed another man⌠You are a sick monster every child fears. You are a monster that killed my family, and I am going to be the hero and stop you from doing anymoreâŚâ This felt self righteous and due to thesudden memories flooding back of Adamâs recent massacring, because how convenient is a dream if it cannot summon artificial memories? It only seemed right.  Killing him wonât bring Hans family back, but killing him would stop him from hurting anymore people. Triumphed, the french prince looks up at his lover. Gleaming of the daggerâs edge reflecting off the sun in the room. The bright lights almost a tease to what theme this way. Adam lay there with a bare chest, defenseless to the otherâs advancesâ Even as Hans sat up to aim, and plunge  the blade in, the prince let his arms lay flat. Outstretched in each direction as if it might be a crucifixion. This is fine. Let it happen. If Hans hates me what even is the point in all of this? Looking up at the other, blue eyes watched the maddened green onesâ
    { Beginning to shiverâTossing over to his other side. Choking up.}
      Closing his eyes, he canât stand the pain of not spending his life with the other. Being loathed by your most loved is worse than death itself. Fine. Oh kill me. Please, if that is how you feel. Just get it over with. â  Do itâ.
    â  Do what, Adam?â A rasped voice replies. Opening eyes, to find that instead of Hans pinning him, he is pinning Hans. Looking into the otherâs terrified, confused green eyes. Taken aback by what just happened, swearing it was the other way. Looking at Hansâ Adam begins to relax a littleâ wondering if maybe he was dreaming⌠But at the corner of Hansâ lip something begins to take shape. Staring at it for a second, a bead of red falls down the other princeâs chin⌠Down his neck. Furrowing his brows, Adam picks it up with his finger, giving a tasteâ blood.
      What in the hell⌠???â Hans?â
    â  Adam?â Following the otherâs expression still bewildered and frightened, the direction of their eyes shifts down to their chest. To which Adam follows, looking down at his other occupied hand. â Oh⌠mon⌠amour? â The dagger was thrusted deep into the other princeâs chest, Adamâs hand on the hiltâ holding it in. Clearly he was the one killing the other, having had the illusion that he was being threatened. An illusion.
    {â  No!â Slams his hand.}
      Swallowing roughly, Adam looked back up into those eyes. Looking betrayed, wondering why he did this⌠â  I donât knowâ Hans Iâm⌠a Monsterâ no you are to kill me not⌠Not this. Hans no⌠Hans...â
      Not sure to pull the dagger for fear of the other bleeding out, but the damage was already done. what could be done? What have I done!? Rushing to grasp the back of Hansâ head and upper body- Adam pulls the other close to him. â Iâm sorry⌠Oh my godâ Hans, no this wasnât⌠Iâm so sorryâ I knew this ⌠I shouldâve just let you be here withâŚ. â
      Tears begin to take up his eyes, and his throat as he chokes up. The largest lump.
       Did i just kill him? â Hansâ No⌠ I love you⌠I canât be here without you. I didnât meanââ
      Rocking back and forth the other in his arms. â Itâs okay, Adam. I love youââ No. No Donât forgive me you fool! Hate me! AT least hate me for this!!!
    {Stops breathingâ begins to tremble more roughly}
     â  No⌠Stay with me. Please.  Iâll⌠get you helpâ I ⌠I will sell the rest of my soul for you. No⌠Hans. Donât do this.â This canât be happening! How could this happen??  â  Iâm sorry, Adam. We wonât be having breakfast togetherâŚâ
       Heart is full of dark, anger and hatred towards himselfâ No⌠â HANS!â
       Beginning to rock himself, his loverâ bleeding through his fingers, darkening the sheets in this black, and red liquid. Feeling the other co limp, sends Adam into a tailspin of a breakdown. His whole mind, everythingâ literally losing grasp on reality, and thought. Snapping in sanityâhe sobs through clenched teeth. Blaming himself for everything.  â  HANS! â Â
      { â HANS!!! â
     Throwing himself up into a sitting position. Sweat trickled down the side of his face as he shook and gasped for air. Heart thudding heavily in his ears as oxygen floods back into his body, making his brain dragâ Still taken by that⌠Not really sure if this was still the dream. Looking around the bed, kicking the sheets back, expecting to be soaked in that black-crimson. There is blood marks about, which pushes him over the edge that this may have happened.
       Not wanting to dare look at the body beside him, incase they donât wake up for breakfast. Incase it is true. Tears begin to leave his eyes, as the sobs from before are still echoing through him like tidal waves. Dry heavingâ he clutches himself with his arms, feeling sick.
      Digging into his own skin with partially changed fingernailsââ  HansâŚ. Hans⌠I love youâ I love you⌠Iâm so sorry⌠I love you â Repeating over and over. It appears to have been nothing but a traumatic nightmare. Leaving Adam shaking, and rocking back and forth. Is it over??
   â  Hansâ I âŚ. â â â