#for those interested...

to explain it real short it is called the epstein-barr-virus. it's one of eight viruses in the herpes family but it's nothing like herpes. basically it fights my immunesystem 24/7 but can't be destroyed. that of course causes my body to get tired and exhausted and also sick more often than other people cause my immunesystem is "busy" with that virus. it also clings onto good cells in my body to make it fight them. so my body is destroying itself (i think that's called autoimmune disease). it marks bad cells as "neutral" so my immunesystem doesn't recognize them as enemies and just leave them there. it fights my organs, puts inflammation wherever it is and just simply destroys my body piece by piece.

they recently found out that also pretty much all cancer patients have this virus so that ebv induces cancer.  also: all these times i get a cold from someone it's never just a cold. i get bad infections, usually affecting my lungs. and because my lungs are infected a lot, there will grow scar tissue and that will induce a lung disease that will leave me dead within 5 years. i will drown.

so the symptons of ebv pretty much are: - depression - illness so often that you can't live a normal life anymore - dizziness  - pain everywhere, mostly muscles and organs - shaking - nervousness - problems with your stomach - heart diseases  - lack of concentration - and of course many diseases affecting my organs - constant exhaustion