My mind often drifts back to the past making wonder if that one decision was right? I know, well I hope in the end it's the right thing to do but are these feelings worth it.
Why does it frustrate me so much when she's appears in my mind like a phantom in the night. Haunting me with her beauty, when I know in my heart I shouldn't really care but for some reason I do.
It's ironic that I want her to be happy but I've hurt her at the same time but Is it wrong for me to want her to move on and find someone but yet I don't...
Is it wrong that her face brings me a sense of warmth and joy but I feel like I bring her pain and confusion?
Is it wrong that I want to be part of her late night thoughts as she is in mine?
Is it wrong for me to want to be with her but I can't have her.
I hate that it feels like I have to find things to make me hate you, to help forget you but for some reason, something always seems to brings me back to you...
The thing is I want to show you how much you mean to me. There are so many things I want to do and say. I need you to know, but I can't and I won't.
In the end, what I think doesn't matter because I know I deserve what I've done to myself.