#focalseizure

*Feel free to ignore but it would be nice to have some advice because I’m feeling pretty beaten down. 

One of the most frustrating things that I’ve faced since being diagnosed with epilepsy is the loneliness that happened so soon afterward. Some people I considered close friends that supported me in finding a diagnosis now barely say ‘hi’ in the hall anymore and I live two doors away. I see them frequently going out and having fun online in our usual group, but this time without me. The same friends that brought me to the ER when I had a seizure at the pool now barely acknowledge I exist. 

I tried reaching out several times trying to propose things for us to do but each time the same member of the group texts last minute to cancel. I’m at the end of my rope and I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m a college student in a pretty large, isolated campus with limited resources so I don’t know where to turn. 

Another concern I have is a safety and security measure because I am alone on a large campus, now without the only people I could rely on. I often am left with the effects of simple partials during and after a seizure, which occur about 2-4 times a day (progress with medication from 8-12 times a day). I think it would be really comforting if there was a way to have that stability of not being alone in those times, but I’m not sure how.