#fobpost

because even though this band means more to me than however i attempt to lay out my feelings, i had seriously all but given up on ever seeing the guys live. it seemed like nothing would ever work out.

i got into fob in early 2006 and was sofuckingsofuckingsO FUCKING CLOSE to going to the honda civic tour in 2007. but i couldn't, because my SA levels were getting pretty high and my parents were worried, despite how passionately i listened and sang and danced at home.

then the hiatus, which i don't want to talk about. i could have seen patrick on his soul punk tour but let's not talk about that either om g

and now i'm about to graduate high school and my favorite band is back just in time and i have tickets to see them in a small venue and i could meet. them. and i'm going alone and the fact that i even considered going for it is WOW a big deal.

thinking about not meeting the friends i met because of fall out boy is scary. thinking about surviving the dark pit of life's doom that was 2007-2008 without their music (in particular IOH and folie; shout out to hum hallelujah and water buffaloes) is scarier, i think. and in a little over two months i'm going to scream and sob and hopefully meet some new friends and then it's off to college and a new life and i cannot think of a better way to start it then by attending this concert and mouthing "thank you", or maybe even saying it. 

i'm just really ecstatic.