#fmdminjun

                                                    ❝ others may say i lost my way.                                                                 look in the mirror                                                        take a good look at yourself                                                                    find yourself,                                                                    love yourself. ❞ 

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                                                                    ‘ i am me ’                                                                       impulse                                                         present: you & me ( 2018 )

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He sucks at his finger to get away the blood. “ugh I’m so tired”, he lets himself fall back from tiredness, it seems like the days never ends, a day is usually twenty-four-hours, but for the past weeks, Minjun’s days have been feeling like weeks, and his weeks like years, it’s like everything in the world moves with the slowest pace ever, everything is boring, there is absolutely nothing to do. He wonders when Impulse will have their comeback, when he can have a debut, when he can finally act, when he can, can finally do something.

Shinhye has lived in his house for almost four months and he has had zero people visit him so far. Zero. Zero.

Shinhye is a social guy, he craves attention all the time, and always insists on that he could possibly die if the people he wants attention from doesn’t give him enough attention. Moving out of Impulse’s dorm and into his own house was a big thing for Shinhye, he had saved up money for moving into a house for a long time, and even though his family helped him pay he is still happy about living in his own house. But even though his happiness he hasn’t actually taken the time to invite anyone over nor has anyone asked if they could see his house, no the only ones that has visited Shinhye’s house beside himself are the birds who always eats the blueberries in his garden and the cat who always visits to shit in his garden (which he hates very much). Perhaps nobody has visited because he basically lives out in no-where, it takes him over three hours to get to Gold Star’s building. So you can imagine how weirded out he was when suddenly someone showed up at his door without no warning, on top of that, drunk.

But this was not just anyone, this was Romeo. And who is Romeo? Romeo is someone Shinhye always weirdly for some reason wants to impress. Shinhye doesn’t need to impress anybody, in his eyes he’s impressing enough by standing still, after all he does look like he was hand-made by god. But Romeo is just different from others and so Shinhye would happily accept drunk Romeo into his house, this could be a chance to impress Romeo, and he would take it. “Are you drunk? Do you want to come inside?”

“Shit!” leaves his mouth as he immediately pulls his hand to himself, fuck. He burned himself, he was so caught up in his thought that he fucking burned himself. Nothing lately just seemed to go the way he wanted or needed it to. Shinhye is a great cook but because of whatever reason he managed to burn both his food and himself. “Fuck... I’ll guess I’ll starve for tonight”

Love is such a beautiful thing, isn’t it? It makes people be a better them, it makes people happy, and it always saves everything. At least that’s what love is like in adventures, books and movies, Shinhye knows that in real life then love isn’t exactly like that. Shinhye has never dated anyone, simply because he’s too busy to do it and he just always has been too busy. Once. He confessed his feelings to someone once, and what did he get return? He got told that they liked someone else, so that obviously didn’t go so well. No, love is heartbreaking, it makes people crazy, and it’s also awkward, very awkward. Are you one to ever confess your feelings to someone and you get told they don’t have those feelings in return then you know how awkward it is.

The last time Taehyun and Shinhye met, Taehyun confessed his feelings, and Shinhye turned Taehyun down for multiple reasons. Firstly, Shinhye didn’t have the time at the moment to date anyone. Secondly and probably most importantly, he didn’t like guys at that time. It’s recently that Shinhye accepted the fact that he likes guys, back then he would never admit it, he wasn’t even sure of it. Dating a guy when you don’t like guys just seemed like a bad idea. But after the failed confession everything between them just became a lot more awkward, and for some reason they completely stopped talking.

Shinhye however clearly remembers that he enjoyed the company of Taehyun, and thus he was determined on getting their friendship back on track, he hoped they once again could be friends. And so he had invited Taehyun over, even if Shinhye has lived in this house for almost three months it’s still the fewest people who has seen it. And now all he did was sitting patiently in his sofa waiting for his friend.

being stuck in the middle of two friends was the worst thing to ever happen, and while she didn’t want to get involved, she felt like she had no choice. she could sense something wrong with hwayoung, and when she found out why, she decided to take it into her own hands. all she really wanted was to smack some sense into the guy — figuratively, but if she had to do it literally, she will. the knock on the door snaps her out of her thoughts, and she shuffles over to the door to open it. “you’re surprisingly early. guess the food i promised you was a good bribe.” a chuckle left her lips before she opened the door a little wider to allow minjun in.  

How they ended up like this was still a mystery to Candy but what she knows and she's sure of is that she's having a grand time with Minjun, when they're not fighting, that is. Just like today. The couch was long and there was a lot of space for them but they chose to sit so closely together while watching some variety show and when the commercial break came, it showed her commercial film with Swarovski. 

“I got a solo deal, babe.” It was all over the news, but it was still something she was proud of and wanted to tell Minjun personally. “How about you tell me you're proud of me and call me pretty?” Candy's hand was placed over his clothed chest and she was giving him the cutest possible look so he'd do it. “Or you can just kiss the hell out me. Both works for me anyway.” Rolling her eyes at the options she has given him to make her feel better about herself. 

She could've asked for assurance instead but it has been a while since they both established that neither of them was ready to commit just yet. Were they serious with what they are? Nobody knows. They don't even know what they are. No exact label to put on their relationship, if it even was one. Within the safe walls of her apartment, they can be whatever they want to be. They can act like lovers, fight like enemies and rock each other's worlds, literally and sexually.