#fluviusevos

oh there are so many but lately I've been rotating this lovingly (sam's reaction <33333)

yes! i think for me, although im only on episode 7, is there is a foundation of characters Trying to connect, whether they achieve it or not, because they Care and that makes their emotions vulnerable, their ties to each other key to what the show is episodically trying to do and makes me appreciate everyone- they want to be close, even when they’re working through their own issues and it’s part of their motivations. that redefines ‘power dynamics’ because it requires communication on equal terms, even between parent and child because a child needs to be respected in order to honestly communicate. what i also enjoy is the diversion from defining the parents between what is a dad role and what is a mom role- that emily was a PARENT just as cordell is and that overall this isn’t about gendered division of emotional labor but about the loss of a family member and the grieving and the support/relationship they need from the remaining parent as Well as cordell losing someone very important to his life (dimensions to emily). i enjoy emily’s presence in their memories (especially cordell’s) as functioning OUTSIDE the house, she teaches him how to drive stick shift (he later transfers this knowledge to their DAUGHTER) she is part of the building of the bar environment, she was the handyman, she brought stella books to read and talk about, she’s a person who is more than a ‘rolling in the sheets smiling with no dialogue wife.’ and i am biased because i like jared and gen, but i’m really appreciating seeing him play a family role that typically in american works are very masculine coded especially for a cop role and he chooses not to do that, like he plays a character who enjoys being a dad and loves his wife because he’s a person who loves being a dad and loves his wife. the family system feels real, the love for texas feels real. plus i get to see jared’s acting in a different context, so it is still jared, but i can tell all the little details that make cordell different from sam and it makes me appreciate his craft all the more. his choice like, to dunk his face in water to help with his anxiety/struggles with being undercover, his raw emotions on his face, him choosing to cry, him trying to stay close to his kids ‘i’m trying’ is just refreshing to me lol (i worried about the ranger aspect being too cop forward and taking over his ability to show vulnerability). also i like how many women, of different ages, we have, who are all very complete characters. um, at the end of the day it is a cop show but i do like the angles of acknowledging the system, how micki deals with her place in it as mexican american, the issues that affect stella’s friend bel. costuming is also fun, seeing jared shirtless yay, micki and her boyfriend also yay, but not too heavy on putting women in costuming that feels overly fanservice. this is kind of hitting all over the place, (not as related to spn maybe but..)

truee except I can’t be sad for him bc he’s a raging asshole through and through and I am especially aware of this when we’re Meant to feel sorry for him given how frequently that happens (as opposed to for his more blink-and-you’ll-miss-it instances of vulnerability)

relatable? very much so in certain lights. but I am only ever sad for him during occasional gaps between moments that I can’t articulate bc they are so fleeting and also he doesn’t need any more sympathy it’s made his head swell up to the size of a planet

Also requested by @rowenagirl <3 The people hunger for Mary Winchester blorbo charts!

sam image (looking at rowena) for you

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all of them?? *cracks knuckles*

pretty fresh in my mind because I watched or skimmed all of them for sam every episode purposes recently

I will just rank in terms of my own personal enjoyment and add notes where I think it's helpful

clap your hands if you believe... - still makes me laugh however many rewatches later. my favorite soulless episode <333

the man who knew too much - I don't think this needs much justification beyond SAMSAMSAMSAMSAM

...and then there were none - not trying to make myself sound cool but I feel like I've always liked this episode a lot more than most of the fandom? idk though! it really sucked losing rufus, samuel, and gwen all in one episode (and like that!) but my resouled sam and samuel crumbs that I pretend is a full meal. plus I liked the episode format as a kid. also when sam gets separated from the rest :)

mommy dearest - mostly for eve

(letting you know this is the part where I had to really start thinking) the FIFTH.. come on... 🙄 OH. unforgiven

two and a half men. funney

caged heat

appointment in samarra

the man who would be king - hellers are really annoying about it but still a good episode. it was the sastiel season

the french mistake - again overrated but still a good episode. I really like the shot I chose for sam every episode :]

exile on main st.

family matters

you can't handle the truth

like a virgin - as kaz put it: what if dragons were mid

mannequin 3: the reckoning - sam passed out from cage memories

live free or twihard

frontierland

weekend at bobby's - too much bobby

let it bleed - never my favorite sera episode. I just moved it up because I remembered knocked out sam though

my heart will go on

the third man - just not wild about it

all dogs go to heaven - nick will kill me for this but I must be truthful. look it's not even for being "weird" it's just always been a skip of mine. like I've said if I never liked it as a kid it's extremely unlikely that I do now