story time because the memory popped into my head
last year i was at some new years eve party, i half didnāt want to go because i knew there werenāt going to be kids there who knew of my obsession at the time which was gorillaz. Thatās not the point however.
I was listening to music on my phone, but put it down to get a plate of sweets and crackers. Thatās when I heard really cute laughter, i whirl my head around to the sound and see a guy drinking out of a red cup. Iām not a believer of love at first sight, so it was really attraction.Ā My first thought is to get away from him as quick as possible before he notices me.
I start freaking out, because heās super cute, his laugh is super cute, be still my beating gay heart. I kind of want to flirt with him, get to know his personality, but Iām not out of these two closets. Both theĀ āiām a guyā closet and theĀ āpansexualā closet are locked. I really am not good at small talk either. Iāve never attempted flirting. I donāt know how to speak good, it is aĀ
Iām thinkingĀ ādoes he like guys that are in the closet,āĀ āhow do people do this,āĀ āwhat do i say after the flirting,āĀ āhow even old is he?ā So obviously I go super casual and start messaging my friend on what to do. I donāt remember our conversation actually but I think she tells me to believe in myself and go up to him. I take a deep breath, I stand up.
Thatās the story of how good olā Maverick made a fool of himself because he couldnāt go up and talk to a guy.